Don't die on me [REWRITE]

V

Sorry for the long disappearance. It's like making a comeback and going on hiatus again lmao.
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Hinata was not entirely happy during the meet-up with Sugawara. Suga wasn't there alone instead, Daichi and Asahi were standing beside him.

He silently looks at Tsukishima for help but he is also the same, not knowing what to do.

"Hinata, do you know how your anxiety attack was triggered?" Suga asked, looking calm but there was concern in his voice.

"I... I do but I really would not talk about it." Hinata glanced away from looking at their faces. The pressure is too much for him. He wants to escape this situation.

Sugawara nods slowly but his eyes are fixated on Hinata's arms. "I see. Then what about your arm? Did you get injured?"

Instantly, Hinata hid his arm behind his back. Finding words to speak but there's no answer to that question either. He stood there, mind blank and urgently needing someone to drag him away.

Tsukishima who seemed to notice Hinata's discomfort spoke up. "Why are there three of you all of a sudden, I thought we were meeting you, alone."

"About that...they wanted to tag along. I thought it wasn't a good idea but since Daichi is worried, he's here to ask questions as well." Suga glanced toward the captain. Daichi glanced back and turned his attention to the ginger.

"You haven't been practicing with us lately. We have a match going on soon."

Great. The last thing Hinata wanted to talk about.

"I'm not mad at you if you are sick Hinata, but I'm quite mad that you didn't inform us," Daichi spoke calmly but there was a hint of anger in his voice.

Hinata bites his lips, how is he going to answer this? They need him and he can't play. He's not going to tell them, 'Oh my mom doesn't allow me to play anymore.' 'My mom is also the main cause of my current anxiety.'

It sounds stupid. It is stupid.

But there's no answer coming out of his mouth, again. He only stares at the floor, wanting to disappear. He's on the urge to cry as well, how embarrassing.

Tsukishima didn't like this, with a frustrated sigh escaping his lips, "Look, can we talk about this another day? We have a study session and we need to go." It's wrong to speak to his seniors like this but he knows Hinata is going to have a breakdown if this keeps going on.

Hinata is glad Tsukishima is with him, he needs to get out of this situation. The guilt he's feeling right now is affecting him badly but he can't tell the truth to them. It isn't helping that he's having a hard time breathing now.

Asahi saw the ginger fidgeting, eyes brimming with tears.

"Hinata... is everything okay?" Asahi asked, and that question broke him. Hinata's breath staggered as he felt everything around him spinning. He hears people calling his name and feels someone pull him away but he doesn't know who it is, everything is numb.

He can't do this anymore.

Why is everything going wrong today?

"Hinata, breathe."

He tried. He tried to breathe but everything felt like hell. He tried again, following the person's voice and he managed to focus on his surroundings. He looked up and saw a blurry figure crouching down beside him.

"...Sugawara?"

Sugawara sighed with relief, "That's me. You're doing good. Slowly breathe in and out."

After what seemed like a while, Hinata finally took a deep breath and closed his eyes, everything was so tiring. "I'm sorry..."

Tsukishima got a water bottle and gave it to Sugawara, then he passed the bottle to Hinata. "Don't be." He pulled out his handkerchief and gave it to Hinata, "Here. Wipe those tears away."

Hinata silently took the handkerchief from Sugawara's hand and wiped his tears away. "Sorry. I promise to wash it and give it back to you."

Sugawara hummed, and Tsukishima stood silently beside him. He was silent for a moment before snickering. "Do you think you can stand up and walk? I don't want to carry you though."

"Why are you like this every time you are nice for a moment?" Hinata scowls, "Is keeping your mean personality a thing?"

"Yes." Tsukishima deadpans, "But seriously, can you stand up and walk?"

"I think so." Hinata clicked his tongue. Sugawara then stands up, gently hoisting Hinata up as well. His balance was a bit wobbly but he was doing okay, but the jolting pain in his head says otherwise.

Why is he like this? Why is he so weak?

Tsukishima surprisingly offered to carry his bag as they walked out of school. Hinata is grateful but he doesn't want to be burdened, Tsukishima has done enough for him.

He was lost in thought but Tsukishima's voice snapped him out of his trance.

"I told them not to pressure you for a while but this can't go on. Sooner or later, they'll find out." Tsukishima says, "You know how nosy they are. Either way, you have to tell them what's going on."

Hinata nodded and continued to be lost in thought. If they know the truth, what will happen to him? Are they going to hate him and kick him out of the team? His head is spinning again.

"Are you listening? Hinata?" Tsukishima stopped walking, crouching slightly in front of him. He shakes Hinata's shoulder softly.

He's not going to have another attack, is he?

"Sorry... I'm not feeling well." Hinata blinked. Tsukishima's brows furrowed slightly, quite worried. "If this keeps going on, we can call our session off then."

"No, don't." Hinata snaps his head quite quickly, groaning in pain at the sudden jolt in his head. Tsukishima is now fully frowning, but he nodded understandingly.

As they made their way, two voices came and shouted their names. Cursing silently, Tsukishima turned around and saw Yamaguchi and Kageyama running toward them.

"Can you both not shout?" Tsukishima grumbled as the other two took their breath, huffing heavily.

Yamaguchi saw Hinata standing quietly behind Tsukishima, his cheeks were red with visible tear tracks. Kageyama only blinked, not knowing what to do so he turned to look at Yamaguchi, earning a sigh from him.

"Hinata? We heard you were unwell today, are you doing okay now?" Yamaguchi asked carefully, noticing how Hinata had avoided his gaze. Tsukishima shakes his head, signaling Yamaguchi to stop speaking furthermore.

"I am... thanks for asking." Hinata tried to smile but failed. They all looked at him worriedly, noticing the blank gaze from him. Yamaguchi made his way to Hinata, rubbing his back. "Let's get moving guys." 

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