Supernatural Oneshots

Destiel - Mystery

Hi guys, 

I promised you Destiel and here it is!! Hope you like. 

CAS' JOURNAL

Sam gave me this book yesterday and said that I should use it to write things in. I think he called it a journal. I am supposed to tell this book all of my thoughts and feelings. So I am going to pretend that I'm writing letters to you because it feels easier than just writing.

So here goes...

Dear Book,

Ever since I became human Dean has been really helpful. He says he's there for me always; but I don't want to be a burden. I heard him and Ezekiel speaking, Ezekiel said that he would be more comfortable with me gone. I think it was in an attempt to hide himself. Dean flat out refused to let me leave. It felt nice to be wanted after being cast out of heaven and hated by all my brothers and sisters. It was nice to know that Dean and Sam 'had my back', as Dean put it.

I have decided against signing it.

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Dear Book,

Over the last few weeks I have been in turmoil. I have finally finally realised how to separate and identify all of these human emotions. But there is one I just can't figure out. It's a tingling sensation, it often begins in my abdomen but recently it happens all over. The only other thing that I can describe is the narrowing of my concentration. The world begins to only contain one person. For reasons hidden to me that person is Dean. But fear not book for I have a plan.

In order to figure out what this feeling is, I have decided to do something I have only ever done as an angel. I'm going to watch over Dean.

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Dear Book,

This first night of Dean watching went rather well. I managed to stay awake and leave before Dean woke up. I wonder why humans get so jumpy when the person they are watching wakes up or turns around.

Dean has been asking how well I slept and he seems concerned about my caffeine intake today. Though it is true I have been living off coffee this morning, I'm sure he has more important things to worry about, such as the knight of hell.

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Dear Book,

My second night did not go as smoothly as the first, I am beginning to hate this thing called fatigue. I fell asleep and woke up with Dean all concerned and in my face. I could feel heat in face as I apologised somewhat awkwardly and told him it wouldn't happen again. He didn't seem angry at me though, at-least not outwardly. I want to know what this feeling is, I can't help it, but how can I tell him that. Dean has given everything to the world, how can I possibly tell him that I want him to give everything to me?

I don't know why I'm asking you the questions, what can you say? You're a book.

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Dear Book,

My third night watching over Dean has Failed miserably too. Dean woke up to me staring at him. He freaked out and almost hurt himself when he fell on the floor. Can I blame him? No. I ran out of the room, I think he said my name but I didn't stop to check. I hope I haven't hurt our relationship.

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Dear Book,

Something has come of my miserable attempts at Dean watching! Last night I fell asleep on the edge of Dean's bed, not the best way to start this story I am well aware. When he woke up i thought that this was it, I had finally screwed up our relationship. But all he did was laugh. It wasn't maniacal or hurtful in anyway either, it was more good natured. He pulled up the bed covers then and said words I will never forget, 'get in'. Dean Winchester is allowing me to sleep in the same bed as him. I feel elated and very excitable, almost like a small child who's just been given a Christmas present. I don't know how to tell Dean how I feel or explain the situation to him but he doesn't seem to want me too.