yep. another one,
I don't know how to-- explain it really. ill try but I just don't know.
I guess I feel, tired, numb, useless. idk.
what is my purpose. im tired of being here. it feels like everyone hates me and yeah I get that sounds attention seeking because o yeah not everyone hates me and I have friends and all. yeah. I know. I have friends and I know not everyone hates me but its the constant feeling of everyones eyes on me just judging my every move and I just have to not show it and get on with it. its just hard so many people expect me to be this picture perfect kid when im not. I hate the word perfect its all just to much. ive lost so many people because of my dumb mistakes I wish I could go back and fix it all, I want to actually feel okay for once. I feel stupid even coming here to vent because who cares im just another edgy teen-
im thankful for my friend Lynn, ive tried not eating because I want to loose weight but I always end up eating with her but when I go home its just eat and get it all back up again. I want to be like all these pretty skinny girls. I hate everything about myself and yeah my friends help and all but it just, it doesn't always work I guess.
recently I got into a relationship with my best friend trisha, she's been my crush for like a year now u-u our friendship was e v e r y t h I n g to me- we met through my friend kai-- that was pretty awkward. im glad im with her. shes really helped.
idk how long ill last...peace out
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if you see this, im sorry. you don't have to read, its just a vent ig :) (t w
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