So it's 9.00 pm and I feel like I died and was resurrected again. No, I'm not in a mood for puns, so lemme tell you why.
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I had to carry a trolley full of books and clothes plus a big bag with rations for 15 days. The reality of the situation didn't sink in until I realised that the lift at Bhubaneswar station isn't working.
Thankfully EverSinceNever was there and between the two of us, we carried our three luggages plus the laptop bags. It's unnecessary to mention that we had to make six stops at the landings of the over bridge. By the time we hauled our stuff to the auto, we had to remove the mask because we were getting suffocated, not the fatigued kind, the 'I am not being able to effinf breathe and I'm gonna collapse' kind.
After a lot of confusions and issues at the residence gate, the auto driver departed with 350 bucks.
Just as we entered hostel, we were greeted with an undertaking.
'We hereby agree that we will be treated like a person who's been in contact with a CoVid19 patient'
We stared at each others faces, shook our head and signed on whatever sheet we were signing away our life to. And after a brief brush with the rules and regulations I finally hauled my stuff to my room.
The empty corridors and the locked rooms brought in a rush of fear, uncertainty and all that drama the past few days had ensued. I stopped for a moment and clicked a picture.
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Contrary to my expectations, my room wasn't looking like the set of a horror movie. One hour of sweeping, mopping, washing, sanitising and showering later, I came back through the empty, ghostly corridors and collapsed on my freshly made bed.
A flood of messages were waiting for me. As my habit is, I replied to them all amd then sent a text to few others who I knew would be concerned.
The thunder rumbled outside and the lightning cleaved apart the evening sky. The rain came rushing with a sound like sloppy feet in slippers on the sunroof.
On any other day, the rain would've been an inspiration to create some poetry, today the thunder brought out only the horror of isolation. The warden came with a sullen face and pasted a notice on my door.
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And as soon as she left, a strong gust of wind swept the door shut with a loud bang, making me jolt out of my thoughts to realise that I'm in. Inside this room for the next 2 weeks.
I thought I'd cry. But I had made up my mind that I won't, in spite of what might happen. I looked into the small mirror and tried on a smile. It came out rather awkward, so I tried again and realised there's no one to smile and greet. I turned away from the mirror and stood before the window.
The rain blew a spray in my face, giving respite from the heat. A romantic song danced on the edges of my mind but the lighting flash blinded me and I realised I was getting drenched. Dejectedly I closed the windows and opened Discord.
I needed company. I sent a text to our little secret hideout. jinnis responded immediately. She was one of the few that had been worried about me making the journey. Shank and Jinn pulled up some ghost stories and tried to uplift my mood and it helped. Jinn especially mentioned it's thundering in Switzerland so we have a connection and Shank made me the lead of a horror story. By the end of the chat, I began to feel positive.
They encouraged me to spend my time writing and doing stuff I like and maybe I will.
That brings me to the song I'm listening to on repeat today.
Bas Kuch Dino Ki Baat Hai by Harshit Saxena
That's my current mood I guess. I don't know what tomorrow with bring, but I do hope for the best.
Fun Fact : I am 20 and I just realised I'm so inexperienced that I can't do stuff even a 14 year old can. For example removing the shell of a boiled egg. I literally hit it ten times on the wall of the bowl, without effect of course. And then I realised how dumb I was. I got up and got a heavy spoon and lightly tapped the shell which fell apart and I could pick out the debris and finally have my eggs. So I learnt something new.
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Sometimes some things in life are inevitable. You can't hide away from life. So go out there and face it, it's just a few more days of struggle and then...
