"OUR FAVORITE PLACE"
"I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU, I'LL PROMISE"... Those words he said to me 8 months ago echoed again in my mind... I was here in the park, sitting in the bench kung saan kami unang nagkita non... I close my eyes, take a deep breathe and feel the fresh air... Flashing back all the memories that we had when we were here in the park... The first time we saw each other, dito mismo sa kinauupuan ko, the days that he courted me, the days that we spent our time to each other para kumain ng siomai at mag kwentuhan, and the day that I said my precious "YES" to him... I still remembered it, it was June 23,2019 ... Siya na daw ata ang pinakamasayang lalake sa buong mundo nung sinagot ko siya... Hahaha... We were both happy sa relasyon namin... And as the days, weeks, months were pass by... Ganun lang palagi naming ginagawa... After ng klase namin, pumupunta kami dito para magkwentuhan, mag share ng problems, kumain ng siomai at nagtutulungan sa mga assignments and projects namin... Though mag celebrate ng monthsary, dito din namin sini celebrate... Hanggang umabot kami ng 3rd monthsary... He surprised me, gave me a bunch of flowers, a couple necklace , bought me my favorite siomai and he gave my first kiss to me... While eating , He put my moon necklace to my neck and I also put his sun necklace to his neck too.... I also asked him, kung bakit moon ang sakin tapos sun ang sakanya... "Darkness at liwanag?? So,darkness ako?? ganun??"..I asked him na medjo may pagtataray... But he smiled and kiss me in the forehead... And started to explain " Do you know why? Because your my moon... You have scars, imperfections, and dark side but darling, just like the moon, you're always beautiful... ✨I don't know why everytime I look to the moon, it makes me smile🌙☺, I feel refresh and removes all the pain and burdens that I have...
I always fall inlove with the moon every night as I fall inlove with you baby.... And I'm your sun , dahil ako palagi ang liwanag mo, You always find me kapag may mga problems ka, at syempre sun is alone too, but still shine"... he uttered while holding my hands; it's shaking and sweating, a sign that he's nervous... Napanganga na lng ako at medjo natameme... So, I hug him tightly, dahilan ng pagkahulog naming dalawa sa bench... Halos tawa at saya lang ang nadama namin that night... Were both enjoy and I can say that was the best memorable monthsary celebration that we had... This place is so much important to me ,dahil dito ko lang naramdaman lahat ng mga masasayang ala-ala na kasama ko siya... I smiled and suddenly my tears bump down to my face... When someone touch my right shoulder... So, I opened my eyes and turned my head on it... And yeah ,I see him... It's Mark , my ex-boyfriend... The one that I loved so much... He smiled and sit besides me... I was shook, because I didn't expect na magkikita kami dito sa tambayan place namin... We were both silent... At kitang-kita saming dalawa ang kalungkutan... But after a while... He broke the silence, ... "Kamusta ka na?"... he asked me, but his voice is plainly cold... "I'm o-o-okay"... I uttered with a little bit shakey... He look at me and just smiled... I can't control my emotion, I want to cry, I want to hug him, I want to ask why he leaves me nang ganun lang kadali?... But, I try to calm myself and ask him either... "U-uhmmm, i-ikaww?? Kamusta ka na?, At ba't n-a-nandito ka?", mahina kung tanong kasi medjo nahihiya ako... "Well,I'm fine"... He answered confidently... "Ohhh,mabuti naman"... I said while smiling at him... "At may hinihintay lang ako"... pahabol niyang sagot... My smiled turned into gaze... And I know kung sino hinihintay niya, syempre yung bago niya... Hindi ko pa din naman na meet yung girl, maybe it's time para makita ko siya... At sisiguraduhin kong sasabunutan ko talaga siya!!... Nang biglang nag ring ang phone niya ..*Ring...*ring...*ring... He answered it , with sweetness in his voice... "I'm here in the park, san ka na?, I will wait you here".... And he hang up the phone... He look at me with sadness in his face and he look down to my neck... The necklace that he gave to me captured his attention... "Why you still wearing it?" .... he asked while pointing my necklace... Natameme ako, at medjo di ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ... But ,I try to answer him ... Nang biglang may tumawag sa pangalan niya... "Mark, I'm here" ... said by a beautiful, tall, white girl na medjo mayaman... For sure, siya na ata ang dahilan kung bakit ako iniwan ng mahal ko... Humanda ka sakin ghourrll!!... parang umaapoy ang galit ko nang nilapitan siya ni Cristian at hinalikan... Sa mismong harapan ko pa talaga... Ang harsh nilang dalawa, nakakainis!!! ... Sa halip na susugurin ko sana ang babae, tumayo na lang ako at tumalikod ... Akmang aalis na sana ako , but someone hold my arm, dahilan ng paglingon ko... It was Mark again, He hug me tightly kahit nakatingin pa ang gf niya samin and said"I wanna say Thank You Loraine ... Thank you for giving me the opportunity to love you, For making me part of your life, thank you for the days that you spent for me, and the time that you reserved everyday... I'm sorry for all the days I've hurt you, For all the times I was not enough for you... Forget me Loraine, para di ka na masaktan pa... I know, mahal mo pa din ako. Don't worry ,your still my moon... Iniwan kita, dahil nabuntis ko siya... And I'm sorry for not telling that thing to you... Mag-iingat ka palagi my precious moon...I will always love you..." -he whisppered to me at ramdam ko ang init ng hininga niya... Bumitaw na siya sa pagkaka yakap sakin... At tumalikod, papalayo... Hanggang tingin na lang ang magagawa ko habang siya'y papalayo sakin, tumutulo na luha ko... At tuluyan na siyang naglaho sa paningin ko... Umupo ako uli sa bench kung saan ko siya sinagot at kung saan niya rin ako iniwan... Ibinuhos ko lahat ng sama ng loob ko ... Umiyak ako ng umiyak... Ni hindi ko man lang nasabi ang side ko... Napakatanga kong babae... At oo, sinisisi ko sarili ko... How can I move on? When you're the reason why I'm crying late at nights... Reminds me all your promises that end up in a single "sorry"... When you gave me so much to remember, even getting you out my mind will never be easier... When every moment in a day, it's you that I miss, when I'm still hoping to bring back our best memories... Kung alam mo lang sana kung gano kasakit ma iwan ng taong mahal niya... I know that all of us will feel this... But is it really needed to be this much?... Everytime I remember all the good times we had, I smiled and I cried... Maybe I deserve someone else, but I always wanted you... I always choose you, always.......🥀
-"Ang sakit, Yung wala kang magawa kundi hayaan na lang siya at tanggapin na lang na Hindi talaga pwedeng maging kayo in the end"-💔
-(a work of fiction)
