"A NIGHTMARE"
"Hi Chester, how are you?", Jane chatted me...
My face filled with happiness and excitement... Halos abot tenga ang ngiti ko... I don't know what to do because I thought that she's already forgotten me... 8 days na din kasi siyang hindi nag paparamdam sakin... Nakakalungkot lang kasi, ni hindi man lang siya nag chat sakin for the past 8 days for not knowing the reason... So, I immediately reply to her ... "Hello, I'm not okay, I really miss you Jane"... I sent it habang ako'y nakasimangot...
"I miss you too Chester, pwede ba akong pumunta sa bahay niyo?" ... she asked...
My sadness turned into amazement... Nabigla talaga ako, sa tanong niya... Halos napatalon ako sa saya, ni muntik ko na ngang mahagis phone ko... Ikaw ba naman hindi kikiligin, marupok kasi ako ehhh kahit lalake ako... Kasing rupok sa nagbabasa .Charrrr. So hindi na ako, nagpaligoy-ligoy pa... I replied to her na, "Sge Jane, sasabihan ko sila mama at papa para makapagluto sila ng makakain mamaya, and what time kang pupunta dito??" ... I sent, habang kenekelegggg... Hahaha...
"Mga 6 PM Chester, mamaya-maya nandyan na din ako, nag aayos lang☺", she replied...
After kong binasa to, isinintabi ko muna phone ko... Hindi ko na siya nireplayan pa... Sabik na sabik na din kasi akong makita siya ulit... Sabay takbo papuntang kwarto at sinabihan ko sila mama at papa na pupunta si Jane dito... So ayun, nabigla din sila... Kaya dali-dali silang umalis para bumili ng maluluto mamaya... Samantalang ako ay dali-dali na ring nag ayos at naglinis ng bahay... Nang biglang nagsalita si ate... "Huwwaawww, parang napakalinis ata ng bahay Chester ah, anong meron?, Aba-aba bibisitahin ka na naman ng girlfriend mo noh?, Yiieeeee, ikaw ha"... she said na may pakilig kilig pang nalalaman... Tumango na lang ako habang pinipigilang tumawa.... Lumabas na ako ng bahay at hinintay ko siya... Di nagtagal dumating na din siya, may dala-dalang bulaklak, at cake... Walang pinagbago, napaka ganda parin ng girlfriend ko, mukha tuloy akong natameme sa suot niyang bistidang puti habang siya'y papalapit sakin, parang ikakasal na ata kami...Yieeeeee...Ang harsh ko nemen...Hehehe... "Hi Chester, para sayo pala to"... she uttered habang inaabot ang dalang bulaklak at cake sakin...
Parang maiyak-iyak tuloy ako sa saya at hiya🤧... So, I hug her immediately and she hug me too... Sobrang miss na miss ko na kasi talaga siya...
"Thank you for this Jane, at para s'an pala tong bulaklak at cake?, may ano ba ngayon ?" ,pagtataka kong tanong habang inaalis ang kamay ko sa pagkakayakap sa kanya...
Di naman kasi namin monthsary ngayon eh, di ko rin birthday at di niya rin birthday...Hmmmm...
"Chester, accept that as my gift for you, dahil ilang araw akong nawala at walang paramdam sayo"... sambit niya while watching to my eyes...
So, I smiled at her... At pumasok na kami sa bahay... Binati siya ng mga ate ko... I'm so lucky to have them because they're always support me in all decisions that I've made in my life... Tanggap na tanggap nila si Jane, parang kapatid nga lang turing nila sa kanya ehh... Nang biglang dumating sila mama at papa ,dala-dala ang mga supot na ipinamili nila...
"Good Evening po, Tita, Tito", bati ni Jane sa kanila sabay mano...
"Aba, iha, napaka ganda mo parin talaga", pabanat ni mama sa kanya... Samantalang, niyakap siya ni papa... Kaya tuloy napaluha ako, napakasarap nilang tingnan, parang anak lang din nila si Jane... Ansarap sa feeling na mahal na mahal din nila si Jane gaya ng pagmamahal nila sakin...
Nagluto na sila mama at papa ng makakain namin, samantalang kami naman ng mga ate ko at ni Jane ay nagbabanda sa sala... Yan kasi ang palagi naming ginagawa kapag nandyan si Jane dito sa bahay... Napakaingay namin dito kanina... Nang biglang natameme ang lahat nong tumugtog si Jane ng gitara... Halos kilig at saya lang ang nararamdaman ko while watching my girlfriend singing a blackpink song while playing guitar... She always support Blackpink kasi ehhh... Umaapaw ang kaligayahan sa puso ko , ni hindi ko alam ang nararamdaman habang tinititingnan siya at dinadama bawat pagbigkas ng mga salitang kinakanta niya kahit di ko maintindihan... After that, tinawag na kami nila mama at papa para kumain ng hapunan ... Jane sat besides me, and we were both happy talking each other while my family teasing us... "Hehehe"...We're both chuckled... Hindi nagtagal, nagpa alam na din siya sa family ko... Hinatid ko na siya sa labas... My heart ached when she suddenly stand infront of me while holding my hands and said this phrases... "Dave, mag-iingat ka palagi ha... Matagal- tagal din akong mawawala ulit, kaya sanayin mo sarili mo na hindi na ako kasama, maybe it's time for you to accept the fact that I can't be the one for you... Sorry for being a failure... Atleast we met, and I'm so lucky to have you in my life... The future we once planned together, those were I willI will forever treasure... Sorry if I can't fulfill my promise anymore... I love you until we meet again"...She said as her eyes met mine, and our lips slowly touches each other while our hearts seems creating a sweet symphonic lullaby in every single beat of it... The cold wind caresses our skin, giving us chill feeling... Those words stabbed me to death, those words literally cut me deeper than a knife... I don't understand what she meant to me... But my tears started falling down to my cheeks while hugging her tightly... And suddenly everything went all black...
I woke up, with full of tears and sadness in my face... Napanaginipan ko na naman siya... This is her 9th night of prayer for her burial... She died last May 6 this year because of her diabetec condition... But, she's not getting out in my mind... Suddenly, I slapped myself... It was hard, rough and painful, but I guess I'm already numb physically because there's nothing more painful than the pain that I am feeling right now... I covered my face using my palm... And I cried so hard... That made me confused... I stepped unto her coffin were she laid... "The world is against us, Jane... I need to accept the fact that there's no you that will understand my shitty, childish attitude when I'm mad... No one will kiss my forehead, hold my hand surprisingly, pinch my nose, squeeze my cheeks and tells a lot of story to me... But your always here in my heart Jane, I will pray for your soul everyday... I love you, I always love you"... I whispered when cold wind hugged me, and I know that was her presence ....😢
"Cherish everytime, every moments na kasama pa natin ang mga mahal natin sa buhay dahil hindi natin alam kung kelan sila mawawala" ..💔
(a work of fiction)
