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𝘓𝘢𝘯𝘢 𝘋𝘦𝘭 𝘙𝘦𝘺 - 𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴
She didn't know if it was possible for her to move on. It was two days since he left. Forever. He didn't just take all of Emma's happiness, he took the way she saw the world before. She saw black and white. Nothing could make her happy— noting could make her see the beauty in anything. It was all just sadness. She talked to him every night because she was sure he heard her. Every time she would say something about him out loud, warm summer breeze would enter her apartment.
Was it a coincidence or a sign?
She talked to Grayson. He was as heartbroken as she was. But he also kept it together better. She just didn't want to talk about Ethan. She was mad at him. She blamed herself. She blamed him. She blamed everyone. She was in a mindset where she would say "if i was just there" or "if i did this", referencing that he would still be alive.
Memories— she hated them. They would usually hit her at night. When she would stare at the wall beside her, staining her pillow with tears. From the day she met him, to all the bad things she said to him in a fight, that she would definitively take back. She also knew he was next to her every night. She could feel his presence. She would ask him to show her a sign he was there, and it was always the warmth in her chest. As if he was hugging her, making that a sign.
"So, i have a surprise" he said as he smiled at her. "Aww. You know i hate surprises tho" she giggled. "Well.. its too late" he said, handing her a black box, with a blue bow. "That's so pretty" she smiled as she slowly unwrapped the bow. She opened the bow, and inside was a necklace. It had a blue/white/gold butterfly. Her face lit up "Eth!" She smiled "you like it?" He chuckled. She cupped his cheeks, kissing him softly. "Thank you" she teared up. "Aw, don't cry Em" he said "but i never thought someone would do something like this for me" she smiled, whipping her tears.
She squeezed her eyes shut, holding the butterfly necklace tightly. A quiet sob escaped her lips. "why did you leave?" She said "please come back" she added, knowing she was talking nonsense "i still miss you okay?" She said "and i know you told me to forget about you, but how can i" she whispered "just know, I'm never going to love anyone else. I know you dont want me to do that, but i dont care!" She yelled. And yet again, she felt warmth in her chest, on her skin— everywhere. "I love you" she whispered.
"Ethan!" She squealed as she ran towards him, throwing her bags behind her. He opened his arms, and she jumped into his embrace. She hugged him around the neck tightly, and he hugged her around the waist. She cupped his cheeks, kissing him. "I missed you so much" he whispered "i missed you to baby" she cried out. She inhaled, his scent running down her lungs. It smelt like him, like home.
She sobbed quietly, hugging herself even tighter. His smell. Grayson promised he would let her take some of Ethan's stuff. She needed it right now. She helped herself up from the bed. She looked at the clock. 2:34. At this point she didn't even care. After all she was sure Grayson was awake, because both of them aren't getting any sleep anymore. She took her phone and her keys heading out. She got to her car, and started driving towards their house.
"We can sleepover at mine" Ethan said as he turned to her. "I mean sure" she smiled at him. "We're heading that way anyway" he said. "Omg! Look at the view!" She squealed as she pointed at the window. He turned around, but not to look at the view. He looked at her in awe. The excitement in her over a sunset, made him smile. The sun kissed skin, her icy blue eyes turning into a honey like color because of the sun, her plump pink lips, her hair— it all had him in a bliss. "You're beautiful" he said. She turned around to face him "thank you Eth" she smiled softly. "I love when you drive at this time of the day" he said "and why's that" she asked "i dont know. You just look gorgeous" he said
"No...." she whispered "NO!" She yelled, hitting the steering wheel. "Why is everything about you" she said. "All my thoughts, everything i do!" She yelled "everything's about you for fucks sake!". She turned on the radio to try and get her mind off of him. "And for the sad news today, a YouTuber Ethan Dolan, was pronounced dead in the ****** hospital, after the tragic car incident. His twin brother was asked about the accident by a paparazzi, but he didn't speak on it just yet. His rumored to be girlfriend posted a post on instagram today, dedicated to Ethan. The post included a series of photos of them, with a caption "fly high angel". We expect her and his twin brother to write a something more about the tragic accident, but of course after they take some time off. Fans were also heartbroken. We are all sending so much love to his family, friends and all the close ones. May he Rest In Peace."
She turned off the radio in tears "you've got to be kidding me" she said, warm tears rolling down her cheeks. She finally pulled up in their driveway, and soon she was parked in front of their house. she sighed as she got out, whipping her cheeks with her shirt. She knocked on the door, and seconds later she was standing in front of Grayson. He looked like a mess. His hair was a mess, his shirt stained, dark under eye bags. "Hey" she whispered. "Hi" he said "I'm not going to bug you, i just want to take some of his thighs if that's ok" she said "yeah" he said quietly as he moved to the side. She walked towards his room. Last time she was here, he was with her. He was there. She could see him in the hallway. It seemed so real. "Just another mind trick. I know it" she said as she continued walking. She entered his room. Her heart hurt. It just felt like he was there. Like he was just about to enter the room.
She took the bag she brought, looking at the things she could take. She first took a couple of his shirts, hoodies and jackets. She one of his perfumes, that reminded her the most of him. She took a bracelet she bought him and his stuffed animal he had on his bed all the time. She got out and as she was about to leave, she saw Grayson outside. She decided to say bye to him, because she was sure she wasn't going to face him for a while. "Hey I just wanted to.. you know.." she said as she opened her arms. He sloppily hugged her back, but held her tight. She cried. "You smell like him" she mumbled against his chest. "I'm wearing his shirt" he said. "K" she smiled as she pulled away "I'll see you. Are you flying with me tomorrow" he said "yeah... I'm actually seat next to you" she whispered, sniffing. "Alright then, If you need anything just call" he said. She nodded softly, before turning the other way, to leave the house.
She couldn't believe tomorrow was real. She never thought she was going to attend his funeral so soon. So much for the great summer that was ahead of her, that she was supposed to spend with him...
