• Take My Hand • | A Taekook fiction|

(Chapter 3) • Internal Crisis and Crushes •

Jungkook's POV  

After exactly 5 minutes, I saw a figure approaching me. And as you'd have guessed, it was Hoseok.  

I beamed in happiness and broke out in my signature bunny smile, as it was my first time seeing him in months, almost a year. We had facetimed quite often, but nothing could really beat hanging out in person.

 "Hey, kook!! Wassup bro?!" He said as we 'bro hugged' eachother.

 "Nothing much, hyung. Other than me moving into Seoul now, of course."

 "Yeah, I figured, lol. So! Shall we head to the store?"  

"Yeah we shou- did you just say 'lol' out loud??"  

"Uhhhhh yyyeah..? Why are ya surprised, kook?? I literally do that all the time"  

"Ahh yeah. Forgot 'bout that."

 And with that, we headed to the grocery store. We talked about random stuff, like earlier during the call, so much so, we didn't even notice that we reached there until we were inside the store.

Yeah. We were like that sometimes.

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 Once we were done with putting the necessary items and tools in the cart, we headed to the cashier. Then I saw it.

Ice cream. It was chocolate flavour as well. God, I wanted it. But I didn't need it-

 "Kook? What're you doing?"

 "Huh?" 

Startled, I looked up at Hoseok hyung before finding myself squatting –Chinese-style– in front of the huge refrigerator; staring at the chocolate flavoured ice cream up until a few minutes ago.   

When had I even gotten in such a position?

 "Uhhhh... I don't know.. When did I- just.. Nevermind."  

"So why were you squatting like that? What were you even staring at?" He walked closer to me, holding two big packets of potato crisps.

I sighed, feeling slightly frustrated. "So.. Uh.. This is stupid but I really want chocolate ice cream, but I don't need it, y'know?" I said, still staring at the ice cream.  

"Hmm.. I get what you mean.." He squatted beside me as well, staring at the ice cream I was looking at.  

We stayed like that for what felt like an hour, but was only about three minutes, at most. I could feel the odd stares we were receiving from the people walking past us.

Safe to say that it would've been pretty damn awkward if I was the only one in that position.  

"So uhh.. That was.. Awkward."  

"Well yeah. But that's probably between us and other people. It didn't feel too awkward between us two, did it?"

 "Yeah. I mean, we could literally walk in on each other shitting and we'd still be chill with it. Shows us how close we are, to be honest." Not a lie.

 "True. So. What are we gonna do about the ice cream? We gonna buy or no?"
  I sighed, scratching my nape in frustration. I really wanted it.  "Ahhhh fuck it. Imma buy it." I said as I opened the door of the big refrigerator, grabbing the ice cream.

I could hear my hyung giggling from the side. I looked at him and shrugged.  

"Imma buy it." I repeated, "I want it. So why not? It's not like I'm splurging too much anyways."  

He was having a giggling fit again. Why was he laughing so much, I hadn't even said anything funny. He was making me laugh a little as well, what the heck-

 And before I knew it, we both turned into giggling messes, for literally no reason.

These were the moments I had missed so much for the past year. I felt happy, knowing that I could spend more time together with him like this again.

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 We'd decided to go back to my house, because Hoseok hyung had really wanted to see it and help me settle in, and also because we both had wanted to hang out and catch up more.  

And while we were doing exactly that, I found out that his part-time job was pretty close to my house. I knew about him being a part-time waiter in a café before, of course. But I'd never really known about it being this close. 

We continued talking and watching TV. Then I remembered about something, and decided to ask him about it, wanting to tease him a little.

"Soooo hyunnnggg~ How's Yoongi and Jimin hmmm~?"  I saw him blush, his face bright pink.

I started laughing at him in amusement, seeing him turn into a tomato the exact second I mentioned his crushes.

 "Oh shut up- and yeah, they're doing great! I hope I get to see them soon and talk to them- Anyways, how 'bout you hmmmmm~ any new girls that you have your eyes set on~?" He asked with the same tone and expression I had. But I just shrugged.

I'd had a few relationships with some girls before, but those never really worked out for me. So ever since the end of high school, I'd never wasted my time by crushing on people or being in a relationship with anyone.

"Eh. No, not really. You know how it is, I just don't wanna waste time crushing on someone that's probably not gonna return the feelings. Or even if we do date, it probably won't last long, so why bother?"

 He nodded and said, "Don't give up hope, bro. Personally, I believe that there's someone out there who's made for you, kinda like a literal soulmate. I don't know why, but my gut tells me so. And you know my gut is never wrong-"  

"We once literally followed your 'gut feeling' to change our usual route to our high school, and then got lost in the woods somehow, hyung."  

"Uhhhh b-but that was only one time-"

 "Well, yeah. But it still counts so it's better to say that your gut is like.. 85% right."

 "Damn. Yeah. But still, then there's an 85% chance that my gut is correct! That's good enough. And uhh... Have you thought about why it never worked out between you and those girls?"  

"It's not like I don't have, but I never really focused on it. Why ask?"

 "Hmm It's nothing, just wanted to ask. Well, have you ever thought about being attracted to guys then? Maybe that's why it never worked out or you fell out of love so quickly."

 "Nah I don't think I'm actually attracted to guys. If that was the case, then I wouldn't have had feelings for those girls, right?"  

"Bisexuality and Pansexuality exists, kook."

 "Yeah, but still. If that was the case, then I would've felt something for a guy before as well."

 "Hmm.. Yeah. True. But you never know till a certain time. Anyways, I'm sure you'll find that special someone soon."

 "Hmm yeah." I agreed without really meaning it.

I guess the future would reveal itself soon enough.

 We then hung out for a few more hours, even had dinner together and watched more TV, just hanging out as bros.  Eventually, he left my home and went back to his dorm. He'd told me we could hang out with his roommates, Namjoon and Seokjin, next time.

I was excited about that actually. That meant, I would have more people to hang out with, and also meant being less lonely.

 So why not?