camellia withlock│draco malfoy ✓

10│trust problems

CHAPTER 10: trust problems

It's been a few months since I first came to Hogwarts, a few months since I found out about myself and my real parents. People still whisper about me whenever I walk by them and they still glare at me. Sirius has been sighted not far from the school a few days after Draco's injury.

Something that I found terribly odd, is that not only did Sirius escape from Azkaban, but Bellatrix too. As far as I remember from the films, she didn't escape before after Voldemort came back. What changed? Maybe because of me...

In DADA class about a month ago, we encountered a boggart, but the class got cut short because of Harry, as always. But professor Lupin said that we'll do it again later for those of us who didn't get a chance to try it. I'm a little scared of what mine can be. To be honest I have no idea. There have also been trips to Hogsmeade. Minerva was kind enough to sign my paper since I have no one. I went there one time with 'Mione, but I'd rather stay back at Hogwarts and read.

I've been trying to read as many books as I can. Mostly about what they did in school the two previous years so that I know. My parents may have learnt it to me before, but I can't remember any of it yet. So why not read about it. Maybe It'll trigger my memory? It hasn't happened yet, but sometimes I dream about them. These happy memories from when I was younger.

Minerva and Albus, who I'm now on a first-name basis with, have told me stories about them. Just about how they were in school and happy things, but it bugs me a lot that they won't tell me about the "bad" things also. I know already that they were death eaters so why not tell me about that too?

Oh, and Sirius has also attacked the school. It was no fun to lie on the floor in the great hall. It's dusty and cold. We live in a magical world, but they couldn't have used a spell like Scourgify to clean it up first or used some kind of spell so that it was warmer? Also, 'Mione finally found out about Lupin's secret. I already knew he was a werewolf because of the films, so I was waiting for her to find out herself. And Snape's famous line from the film's "turn to page 394" is so much better in person!

Harry's accident with the dementors at the Quidditch match has also happened. He turned out alright just like in the films. But his broom was another thing. At least he'll get a new one for Christmas. Harry has gone a few times to Hogsmeade by using the invisibility cloak. Last week he got the Marauder's Map from the Weasley twins and found out that Sirius was his godfather. He reacted just like in the films.

"Melia!" That's what Hermione calls me. I have begun to hate my name, both of them. Camilla was just a fake name and Camellia is the person I'm supposed to be here. But I don't feel like any of them. 'Mione noticed this and began to call me that. I like it. It's my own name and not a name that I have to live up to.

"There you are!" 'Mione starts, "I've been looking all around for you."

"I told you that I was going to the library."

"Yes, and I went to the library and you weren't there," Melia just giggles at that. She took the long way to the library to clear her mind a little. "I took the long way"

"I noticed... Now let's go!" Melia laughs at her attitude. 'She really loves to study', she thinks to herself. They walk towards the library where Harry and Ron are waiting. 'Mione somehow convinced them to study with them.

"Finally, what took you so long?"

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Albus, Minerva, Remus and Severus are sitting in front of the fireplace in Albus' office. Albus sits down on one of the chairs before he starts to speak, "How has she been?"

Remus places the book he was holding back in the bookshelf, "She doesn't talk a lot. She's a very quiet girl."

Albus looks at him in deep thought. It's quiet for a few minutes. Not an uncomfortable silence. Only the sparks from the fire can be heard. "What about you, Minerva?" he asked her after some time. She thinks a little about what to say before speaking.

"Well, Remus is right. She is very quiet. Only speaks to those she trusts or if she doesn't have a choice. Like in classes. I have only noticed her speaking to Miss Hermione Granger and a few words to Harry Potter and Ronald Weasley, but no one else."

"Who is alive," Remus points out.

"What do you mean by that?"

"I have seen her speaking to ghosts and paintings. Mostly Rowena's daughter, Helena."

"Why? What has made her mute?" Severus asks with a little hint of worry in his voice.

"Four years of her life has been a lie and everything before that she doesn't remember. Of course she's having trouble trusting people. She's probably scared that this is also a lie, so she doesn't get too attached to people just in case," all of them ponders on Remus' words. They feel all equally guilty of her becoming like this. 'How could I let this happen?' is the question that wanders in their minds.

"What about her educational achievements? How is she in classes? Is she as good as her parents told us she would be?"

Minerva answers right away without any doubt in her voice, "She's even better than what they told us! Every spell we are learning about, she can do at first try!"

"Even in potions, I asked her a question that is meant for sixth years last week and she answered right at first try! It's like what she's learning now is too easy for her."

Albus goes into deep thought again. He thinks about what he promised her parents. She had to stay in the year with those of her age. Even if she is bored in classes, she has to take them. For herself and for her parents' last wish. For her to have a normal childhood. She won't get that if she goes right into seventh year, even though her abilities fit that year.

(A/N) From now on the main characters name, Camilla, will be written as Melia. The reason has already been described in this chapter. Just a friendly reminder in case you're confused :)

Also! I know Bellatrix doesn't escape before year five I think, but I have something planned in the storyline that needs Bellatrix before the Fourth year.

- Camilla ❃