My Other Half [Ouran Fanfic]

Kaoru's Dilemma

Hikaru POV

Kaoru had a faraway look in his eyes. His hazel orbs shimmered as the sun went down past the horizon. The club room was dimly lit as the guests exited, and the only ones left were us seven hosts.

"So, what shall be our theme tomorrow?" Kyoya questioned.

"Sushi," Haruhi said plainly.
We all stared blankly at the female host not knowing how to reply. Her suggestion would obviously be turned down, so it was up to us to figure out another theme.

My mind raced, not about tomorrow's hosting schedule, but more about Kaoru. He didn't seem to be paying attention to our conversation at all. I walked over and whispered in his ear, "What do you think Kaoru?"

He jolted and sat upright looking at me frightfully. He calmed down upon seeing that it was me and sighed, "I don't know."

"Well, it seems that the amount of otaku guests have risen in the past month or so, as a result there have been several requests for a shojo manga related theme. Any rejections?"

A moment of silence passed and in the end, it was decided that tomorrow, we'd be cosplaying as young samurai warriors from the Meiji era.

*time-skip*

Our feet made crunching noises as we stepped onto the dried autumn leaves. The year has passed by so fast, it seems so unreal...

Kaoru stepped into the car and continued to stare off into space, for what reason, I don't know. As our limo pulled onto the main road, I decided to ask Kaoru about his thoughts, "Kaoru, what's wrong?"

"Oh me? Nothing."

I frowned and creased my eyebrows. Did he not trust me anymore? I searched his face for any hints... None. His pale lips were slightly parted like always, only if I could touch them...
I slapped myself in my head, NO. I CANNOT THINK OF KAORU THIS WAY. But the thoughts just won't leave my mind. Kaoru is all I can think about, is this what it's like to be in love? But why? Why am I attracted to my own brother? It just didn't feel right.

The limo pulled into the gates of the Hitachiin Manor and we were escorted inside. Kaoru headed straight for our room. As much as I wanted to follow him, I wanted to get a drink first. I called for one of our many maids so she would bring me a glass of juice. I chugged it down and raced upstairs to where Kaoru lay on the bed.
He was lying face first on the pillow, what the hell? I crept up to him and heard him weeping.

"KAORU! WHAT'S WRONG? ARE YOU HURT?" I panicked and screamed. It definitely didn't help cuz Kaoru just looked up at me with teary eyes saying nothing. I held his shoulders and slumped onto the bed as well, "Kaoru, tell me. What's wrong?"

Kaoru POV

I couldn't lie to my brother, but I also didn't want him to think that I was crazy. The reason why I was crying: I was imagining our future. If I told Hikaru my feelings for him, would he reject me? And if he did, what would become of me? And that's how I broke down.

I liked how it felt right now, with his hands on my shoulders and his face so close to mine. It almost felt like an embrace. There was definitely something wrong with me, my feelings for Hikaru must be unrequited. I know Hikaru is straight; he likes Haruhi. I'm positive about that. But I couldn't lie, not to that face. So I told him half of my reasons. "Hmm? It's nothing. Just a little trouble with my emotions."