Nothing excites me anymore. I am depressed as well on his death. I have been crying last night. I just want him back. I don't think I can survive it anymore. It kills me from within. I wish I could go back to 14 June and stop it from happening but its impossible. I just wish I could've died before itself. I have started feeling suicidal. From the last few days I had been watching Raabta on repeat to make myself feel better and now youTube deleted it. I want to murder those murderers even if I will have to go to jail for that. Why does all this have to be reality and not a nightmare? I just wish he comes back. I don't know how but I wish he can come back. I wish he was here. I pray that his family gets patience on this unfortunate demise. Yesterday was Raksha bandhan, don't know how his sisters might be feeling when I feel like this. May God bless him with heaven.
