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*the next day* Mattia left you at home after the night do u took a shower etc then went to bed, you wake up and go downstairs and eat breakfast you were starting to think ab last night kinda regretting it bc you were going fine without him and you don't want to go through that pain again so you decided to ignore him bc u were scared of being broken again you were minding you business when ur phone dinged

Mattia
Good morning baby

*u didn't respond u left him on delivered*

Mattia
Hello
Babe
Wake uppp
Babyyyyy
It says your active on Instagram why won't u txt back :(
Y/n?

U just didn't open them bc you thought ab your life w/o him and how u were so happy so you wanted to keep it that way a few hours later you wanted to go on a walk so you go dressed in some leggings and a crop top, you then left out the door, as you were walking you saw mattia he was at the park sitting there he looked as if he was crying u tried to just walk right past him but it didn't work he saw you

Matti: y/n
You:...
Mattia: hey
You: huh
Mattia: why didn't u answer my txt
You: Mattia...I thought ab everything that happened and before we met again I was doing fine living my best life and I jut came to see my mom not start dating someone and I'm sorry for everything I have caused you I truly and but I just don't think rn is the right time to get back together
Mattia: what so last night meant nothing to you
You: no it did Mattia but it's just the wrong time for all of this
Mattia: what did I do wrong
You: nothing at all it's just- I'm a freshman in collage and I need to focus on my studies I don't have the time for a relationship especially one that didn't work out
Mattia: it did you just didn't trust me
You: Mattia I did but getting videos of your ex eating someone out is just gross
Mattia: it wasn't me
You: yeah okay
Mattia: I was crying for you everyday day and night I didn't have time to eat someone out
You: Mattia let's just forget we ever met okay
Mattia: no
You: Mattia we used to be bsf before all this
Mattia: I know an-
You: and we had such a great bond together we used to ft every night I would send me ur hoodies but that all turned when I can and visited and moved here
Mattia: so your saying u regret even visiting me
You: no it was fun but I kinda just wish you would've kept your feelings towards me to yourself
Mattia: w-what
You: if you did we maybe would've still been bsf
Mattia: so your dayig u referent ever even meeting me
You: your the one who wouldn't leave me alone after I told u multiple times that I wasn't interested
Mattia: okay so
You: you kept pushing it
Mattia: I don't get where ur going w this
You: Mattia before u even messaged me or any of this, I was loving my best life I was a teenager living a normal life I went to parties I snuck out I got my first boyfriend I had my first kiss I lost my virginity everything a teenager would do but that all changed when I met you
Mattia: how
You: bc I kicked everyone out of my life I shut everyone out bc of u and I regret losing such wonderful people
Mattia: YOU SHOUID FELE BAD BC OF U I ALMOST OVER DOSED I WAS INTO DRUGS I WAS DEPRESSED EVERYTHING CAME CRASHING DOWN THE DAY U LEFT ME FOR GOOD SEEING YOU AT SCHOOL BEING SO HAPPY HURT LIKE A FUCKIGN BITCH IT HURT BC I DIDNT CHEAT ON YOU I NEVER DID BUT U WANT TO BELIVE SOME RANDOM NUMBER OVER YOUR OWN BOYFRIEND BEST FRIEND IF ONE YEAR
You: YEA OFC IM GONNA BELIVE SOMEONE IVER YOU BC YOU A PLAYER MATTIA EVERYDAY YOU WOULD TELL ON FT HOW YOU WERE TALKING TO A NEW GIRL OR CRUSHING ON SOMEONE YOU NEVER JUST STUCK TO ONE GIRL SO YEHA OFC IM GONNA BELIVE THEM IVER YOU BC AT FIEST U ONLY MESSAGED ME TO BE IN THE TALKING FASE W ME BUT I DINT WANT THAT SO U JUST AGREED TO BE FRIENDS SEE HIW THAT TURNED OUT
Mattia: YEAH I DID BC YOU LOOK HOT BUT THAT DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT IT TOOK YOU ONE YEAR TO FIGURE OUT THAT U DIDNT WANT TO BE MY FRIEND IT ANYTHING W ME IT HURTS BC I FELL FOR YOU AND I FELL HARD BUT YOU DINT WNAT ME AND IT HURTS IT HURTS RLY BAD
You: MATTIA I HAVE HOLD U MILLIONS OF TIMES THAY I WAS SORRY BUT YOU DONT WNAT TO GET IVER IT THAT WAS IN THE PAST
Mattia: I CANT Y/N I FUCKING CANT
You: JUST FORGET AB ME OKAY AND ILL DO THE SAME
*u say walking away*

Mattia's POV
And there she left...again but this time it hurt way worse it felt as if I got lost again and now I lost my other half...again what is she doing that makes me so attached to her I just want to hold her in my arms again I miss her so much and last night was the best night I had in a long time for once I didn't cry myself to sleep like i did every other night, I rushed home and punched a wall and started crying bc I lost her and I don't want too I need to be friends w her again or something I can't just not have her in my life I need her in my life or else there's no long in living