One Last Thing before i die

I Know The Present

(5 years later)

This time today would be exactly 5 years since I had surgery for my cancer they said if I had surgery I could last longer or shorter but either way I would die with or with out it so we took the chance with the surgery I began to slowly wake up and I could feel my body for the first time I have to use a wheel chair sometimes and also I have to use memory pills that bring back pieces of memory through my dreams. I think my parents think im crazy when I say that. Sadly I must be homeschooled since I've had all this happen to me.

Most of my friends try to come visit me but I can barely remember who is who so every time they come they were the same thing I feel like everyday is repeated like its the same exact thing I eat the same thing do the same things and see the same people maybe I am in a loophole or maybe my parents don't know I do remember some things.

Most of the time I would cry myself to sleep cause I know I'd never be the person to have a normal life I cant even remember my name sometimes.. And the worst thing is sometimes I'll look back and id would wish that the surgery would gave killed me instead of saving me. I just wanna die I already feel dead.