I refused to let those tears flow in front of Michael, for I knew if I did he would see how unhappy I am in my marriage I couldn't have that happen. But yet on the inside I felt my chest on fire.
"Michael, It was nice that you took me out for lunch but I have to get going" I said lying straight through my teeth I just needed to go somewhere to cry and officially break down I've been holding all this in for too long
I wiped away a tear that was threatening to fall from my eyes,
"Ok babygirl, when can I see you?" He asked me
"Im not sure, but I promise to return your calls" I said with fake smile, I feel the tears coming please God not in front of him
"Let me take you home" He offered, I didn't want to run into Devin I didn't even want to see him i thought it would be a good idea to just go to our old condo and get away for a while
"Thanks I'll show you the way"
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He pulled up to it, I had so many thoughts swimming around in my head I know I couldn't just jump to conclusions about the situation but I know exactly what I saw there's no way that image will ever leave my mind
"Baby girl? You need me?" Michael said grabbing my arm, he was being so sweet but I can't fall into temptation this heavy
"I'm fine thank you for lunch again" I said
"You know it's no problem" he leaned over to kiss my cheek
I got out the car, as soon as I was facing the door the tears rushed out my eyes, I didn't know I was heart broken this much. I kicked my shoes, I looked around the room everything was empty except for a few things
The couch was gone, I sat in the middle of the floor and I curled up into a ball my legs against my chest and I cried for what seems to be like hours
"God why me" I said through my tears "I loved that man more than I loved myself and...and he just do this to me, I would have gave him my life if need it I don't know what to do"
My head pounded as if there was a hammer against me, the tears left stains on my face and my stomach started to hurt badly
"True?" I heard a faint voice, I looked at my phone to see it was real late it was Ten O'clock at night
Devin POV
My mind wonder a lot since True left the house this morning, I have some indeed making up to do my wife is pregnant and she isn't happy with our marriage I can see it in her eyes, and it cuts deep that I'm the reason why
I haven't been at the trap that much in fact I'd been thinking heavily about leaving only because my girl wants me too and not the girl you thinking about.
As on cue my phone flashed, the Caller ID said Mariah a smile crept upon my face but my chest was on fire as if I felt someone's else pain.
"Ya hello" I answered
"Hey baby" she screamed through the phone, I met Mariah about a two years ago, we weren't involved at all at first until i slipped up and got drunk and from there things started She was 5'4, brown skin, natural straight hair that stopped at her shoulders, she was pretty but she didn't have that wow factor True had
"Hey wassup" I said continuing our conversation, at times I felt guilty but at times I felt nothing but pleasure. I know why would I cheat on a wife that's perfect for me why would I tell her all the things I knew sound good but weren't true
"I was wondering if you wanted to hang out today with me and Shaunna" She said referring to our one year old daughter
"Yeah of course, let me get dressed and I'll be on my way" I said hanging up my phone
I looked in the mirror as I stepped out the shower I leaned on the counter to look myself in the eyes.
"Look what you've become" a voice in my head said "your a selfish bastard who doesn't think of anyone but his self , you jeopardize almost five years with a wife who catch a bullet in her heart for you to only fuck with another bitch and give her your first child! You think your wife deserve your low life ass! When she finds out do you know you broke a women so bad she might not even want to live how bad of a person can you? You don't deserve happiness you don't even deserve to look into your own eyes you asshole" and that's when I stepped back from the mirror what kind of man am I
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"Baby how you like these shoes" Mariah said walking in front of me
"I like them mommy, what about you daddy?" Shaunna said licking her ice cream cone
"It's nice" I said nervously I was so close by to True's store, Mariah was such the flashy type being down here was where all the designer stores were, it made me smile a little when I thought of True she reached her dream on her own she was very independent
She told the lady in the store that she'll take the shoes and of course she wanted me to pay
"Dady Im hungry" Shaunna whined
"Baby girl you just had ice cream" I laughed she was the joy of my world besides my wife even though it doesn't seem like it
"Alright anything you want lead the way" I said opening the door for her
Mariah wobbled slowly slightly behind me
"Mommy come on" we both laughed at her eagerness , she was walking towards the street with all the restaurants, some who have seats outside
I looked towards this couple, they seemed to be having a pretty good time looked as if they were catching up on old times, her smile was bright I remember when I used to make True smile so hard even of a kiss on the cheek, the women looked my way she must have felt my eyes on her then quickly departed from my gaze
"Devin hurry up" Mariah called out I realized she was now walking in head of me, I then heard my mommas words again your consequences are only around the corner, Damn Shaunna had to turn the corner, I looked back I know that I saw her and I know that saw me
ESTÁS LEYENDO
A Thug's Wife Prayer
Romance~No matter how thug my man was it wasn't his life style that kept me it was his love for me that kept him and me alive and also my prayers~
