Diary of an anorexic in love

1|Lost in my thoughts

I walk out of the house and head to the bus stop. I have my green tea in my hand and it's hot so I switch it from hand to hand and walk slowly careful not to spill it.                                                  

"What are you doing ?"                                                                                                                           

 "I believe it's called walking and trying not to burn my hands at the same time."                                       

 "Why did you make it so hot."                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 

" All I do is put it on the stove so it can boil, am I not suppose to?"                                                                                                                                                                           

 That was my brother John . He is my twin. The bad thing about him is that he is popular and that draws a lot of attention to me, bad attention. John is someone already and he doesn't even know it. Once a girl slapped his face with lotion in her hand and I swear there was ten people cleaning his face and trash talking the girl.                

   "WHERE ARE YOU GOING !!!"                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     When I looked up I find my self in the middle of the street. I guess I was lost in my thoughts. I'm not surprised because this isn't the first time I walked into the middle of the street. I look at John who is looking at someone else. That someone else is running towards me. I start to panic. I'm not good with words.                                                                                                                                                         

"Are you okay! Why did you just walk into the middle of the street?"

" I am terribly sorry but I have a ride to catch."

With that I run to where John is and we continue on our walk. We sit side by side quietly on the bus  until john says something weird.

" Why was he talking to you?"

"John who are you talking about?"

"Hunter."

" Who is Hunter."

"THE BOY WHO RAN TO THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET TO SEE IF YOU WERE OKAY!!"

" Jeez John calm down everyone is staring!"

" I dont care just tell me what he said."

"All he said was am I okay and why did I walk into the middle of the street."

" What did you say"

"I said that I had to go because I had a ride to catch."

"I dont want you talking to him anymore, okay."

"Why?'

"Because he is weird and if you talk to him then I would look bad. I rather you talk to that Ana girl that no one knows."

"I will talk to whoever I want and I only talk to Ana because she is with me all the time and she betters me unlike the trashy whores at shool who will turn on you so they can look cool."

With that i walk away and go to sit in another seat. All I can think about now is 'Who is Hunter?'

John doesnt really talk to me out of the house so when he talks to me on the bus I get really surprized. John  thinks Im embarrassing because I really dont talk to anyone even though all of the girls who like him come running to me to ask questions about John. He thinks that I could become the most popular girl in school but i refuse for one reason: Ana.