Diary of an anorexic in love

Progress

I had the weirdest dream. It felt so real though . I was watching tv and Hunter came into the house with John. They were whispering t each other and then they came and sat next to me. John on one side and Hunter on the other. Then all of a sudden John takes a cloth and puts it on my mouth and I fall asleep.

Wait, where am I ? Okay now I'm not so sure that was a dream. I think that really happened!!! But why?

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!"

I forgot my birthday!

"Why couldn't you have just drive me here in a blind fold instead of putting me to sleep !!!"

"Well we thought this way was better" replied John.

"Who is 'we' "

"Me and Hunter of course. Well let's party."

The next five hours are horror . I found out that the house belonged to Hunter. I knew no one there obviously. There was endless boxes of pizza and bags of chips. After everyone leaves I help John and Hunter clean up . We ended up watching episodes of "skins".

"So why are you guys talking. Last time I remembered you guys didn't like each other ." I ask out of curiosity.

"Well I felt bad about everything I said to Angel and decided to understand you."

"John your not making sense."

"This is me apologizing . "

"Oh. Well Hunter why did you let us use your house?"

"Why not? This is my way of saying I really like you. You keep pushing me away, why is that ?"

"I don't even know."

"I have been starving myself" I say at the same time Cassie on "skins" say it.

I look at John and Hunter who are both staring at me.

"What?"

They both look away. Hunter gets up and grabs two pizza boxes. He takes a slice and bites. I am mesmerized by how freely he can eat and remain fit. My stomach growls loudly and I sock it right under my bellybutton. This causes John and Hunter to look at me with confusion.

"Umm are you hungry " asked Hunter.

"No I'm full I ate plenty ."

" No you didn't. I have been watching you the whole time during the party and you haven't even been close to the food."

I look between John and Hunter. I realize they won't stop until they see me eat. I grab a pizza slice and take off all the add ons. Then I take off the cheese causing them to make weird faces.

"I don't like the cheese."

I eat the 'pizza' slowly . By the time I'm done the episode of "skins" is over.

"Well we better get going."

"Ok well thanks for helping clean and staying for a bit."

"Thanks for the party."

On the ride home all I can think about is the calories I consumed and how fat I am.

"Well goodnight." I try to rush to my room.

"Dear I got you a cake and wanted to sing to you."

"Mom I'm really tired from all the dancing and eating. can we do it tomorrow ."

"You only had one pizza" John says

"Oh dear now you really have to eat some cake right now."

"No mom in tired and that's the end of it."

I go to my room and close the door. I wait to hear if anyone is following me then I get my scale out. It reads 129.3 . progress.