Diary of an anorexic in love

2|Week from Hell

When we got to school it is complete pandemoniun. I whole bunch of people are running towards us or should I say towards John. A girl pushes me to the ground making me spill my green tea all over my shirt. I look up at John who is looking down at me and he says the cruelest thing he has ever said to me.

" You should watch where your going."

I am so mad. I get up and slap him in the face. The pandemonium stops and all of the sudden everyone is staring at me. I Just made a huge mistake that I quickly regret.

" Why did you slap him."

" Your a heartless bitch."

" Your a fat whore."

The comments kept coming. I run to the only place I feel unjudged: the bathroom. I didnt want to look weak out there but I can let I all out in here. I decide to stay in the stall until 5 minutes before the end of the day so I can get out and go to the bus without anyone noticing. I also decide the I hate John.

He doesnt care about me. When I was in the middle of the street he kept walking.  If he had to choose between me and his popularity, he would choose popularity. Who am I kidding, he already has. From this day forward I will never listen to John again. The best way to do this is to talk to Hunter.

For the entire day I hear girls coming in and out of the bathroom gossiping about me. They called me pshyco, fat, worthless, etc.

Then I hear Ana.

You know they're right. You are fat, worthless, sloppy, and everything else they're saying. I can show you how to be better. I can show you the way.

I check my watch and it read 3:20. I had exactly five minutes to get out of there. Keyword: Had. As im walking out I see a mob of girls. I hide behind a trash can and listen to what they are saying.

" I swear she ran down this hallway when everone was yelling at her."

"She is probably in the bathrooms."

I hear their foot steps and pray that my fat ass is hidden well behind this trash can.

I lay my head on the wall and it makes a loud thump. I hear them running towards me.I have no other choice but to run. And thats exactly what I do. I make it all the way to the corner and I only have one more hallway to run down. And then It happens: the bell rings.

The hallways began to flood slowly with students rushing to go home. I feel a tug on by hair and turn around. Its Angel aka Johns girlfriend.

" Why did you slap my boyfriend! Who do you think you are."

" I think im his sister."

" Yeah a sister he doesnt love. Do you know what he says about you.'

"What." Im scared so I speak in a low voice.

"He said that he was wishing for a car to hit you. Thats why he didnt say anything. He says his life would be better without you. He said-" I stop her because I cant hear anymore.

"Thank you Angel but I have to go."

"Where."

"I have a ride to catch."

I hear comments on my way out. I sit at the bus stop all alone . Well I shouldnt say alone. Im never alone.

You know what Angel said was true.

I know. What am I suppose to do.

You have to gain respect. Your too fat for anyone to respect you. You have to-

" Who are you talking to?'

"Leave me alone John. I hate you!"

"John? Im not John."

I look up to see Hunter. He sits down next to me. I panic. I start breathing in and out quickly .

" Are you okay. I have a bottle of water if you want it."

I shake my head yes. He gives me the water and as I drink it I start to feel better.

" So who were you talking to."

"Whats your name."

I dont want anyone to know about Ana but John, even though he treaths me like a piece of gum that is clinging to the bottom of his shoe.

" Hunter. Whats yours?'

I guess he knows that im not going to tell him who I was talking to so he just forgets he asked.

"Johanna ."

" By any chance is John Jolie your brother?"

" Twin. Do you know him."

" Who doesnt."

"I meant on a personal level."

"No but we were close in middle school. Once he got here his head just blew up from popularity. If your twins how come I never seen you in middle school."

" I was at a diffrent school."

" What school?"

"Palms Conservatory."

" Why did you guys go to diffrent schools."

" I hated how everyone said we looked alike."

I was telling a total lie. I was actually homeschooled because my mom thought it was best. I agreed because I thought that we would be spending more time togerther. But she hired a tutor and I was devastated.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING JOHANNA!"

It was John. Im sick and tired of him telling me what to do.

" I DONT CARE WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY JOHN. I HATE YOU. YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME. YOU NEVER HAVE. SO I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU, OKAY. I WILL DO WHATEVER I WANT AND TALK TO WHOEVER I WANT."

"What the hell did you say to her." He turns his attention  towards Hunter now.

Before Hunter can reply the bus pulls up. We all get in and sit in different sits. I decide that this is a week from hell.