My Not So Wonderful Life...

Stay Strong...

Haha! See, you thought life, ACTUALLY was good for me... Nope! So from here, your probably like "What's next??" or your like "Dang.. This is boring!" But whatever! We ended stop being friends that day. She told me to my face that she hated me and only pretended to be my friend... so... yeah! That's how that went down. Then, she moved, and two months later, I moved. Life sucked... so when I moved schools, I changed. I didn't have any friends, I was waaaaay quieter, and this is when the bullying started...

                                 ***ONE YEAR LATER***

You know how your mom will ask, "How was school today?!" Yeah, I HATE THAT QUESTION! Since I got bullied everyday, I'd cry on the bus, so when I got home I'd just be like "Oh yah mom it was... Okay!" and she believed it!!

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The bullying got worse, so did my crying. Every day I'd get picked on for something different.. it might've been my hair, or my freckles or my smile, or my chunky cheeks...

I wanted to die! Then one day my mom came to my school, pulled me out of class, and drove me to the E.R. where my cousin was, battling CANCER! Brain Cancer!!! The doctors said he wouldn't make it long. My whole family was crying & was packed in the room and the waiting room! I walked over to him, kissed him and started crying. All I remember is me seeing him crying too. And also drooling a little. So I got some tissues and wiped his tears & drool. The doctor's the made us leave the room while they "Fed Him" he had to be fed through a feeding tube... When we came back in, our church came & prayed over him & then sang his favorite song. Moments later, the docs looked at us & said "I'm sorry ladies & gentleman, he's gone..." I ran into the halls crying, tripping, shaking, I was a mess!! More of our family was just walking in! They all asked me what was wrong and tried to calm me. But I wouldn't stop crying. I told them that the doctors told us he had passed & they all cried too. We were all comforting each other, not knowing what to do... Was this a punishment from God? What did I do? What did I do to deserve this? No one deserves this! Could life get any worse from here??