Turning into Ash

Chapter 14

The opening of my eyes should have made me happy because a new day means a new opportunity and a new beginning. A new opportunity and chance of joy and happiness. But, my thoughts were shattered when I found myself being hooked to couple of machines. One of those machines was maybe monitoring my heart beat because it was beeping steadily. I was also connected to a IV tube.

I saw my bandaged arm, mentally willing the needle to get out of my hand because it was itching me. I looked at my surrounding and there was all white from where I understood that I was in a hospital room.

I saw a nurse standing at the edge of the bed, writing something on the writing pad which was in her hand. She seemed very indulged in doing so that she didn't notice that I had woken up.

I wanted to speak but my throat was block. I wanted a glass of water to gulp because my throat was not making any movement. I was feeling that my tongue was tied inside my mouth and my muscles were swelled that's why they were unable to move or perform.

I tried to clear my throat and I was quite successful in it because it helped me in catching attention of nurse. She saw me and her eyes immediately widened. She rushed towards me and helped me in sitting but my whole body was aching.

She helped me in sitting and then gave me a glass of water to drink. As soon as I gulped the water, I started coughing. She became anxious and started rubbing my back soothingly. She gave me water to drink again and I took few gulps. I felt like a desert which got rain after a long droughty period.

I felt better after drinking water and gained balance. I was not able to get better view of my body as I was in a slight sitting-lying position. My right leg, my left arm and head were bandaged. However I didn't feel the pain.

Seeing those wounds and bandages brought back the memories of my accident night. I wanted to cry but no tears came out. I was hit with the memories of Nick trying to rape me, and then James barged in to safe me from Nick, at the end my feeble attempt to end my miseries; When I came in front of James car.

Why I'm even alive? I was certain that I was going to die. Then who saved me and why?

I was jumbled with my thoughts that I didn't realise that nurse that was standing beside me few minutes ago went out and had called doctor.

The doctor standing in front of me was of old age, maybe in his late fifties. He smiled at me which I couldn't reciprocate because I was void of emotions. I asked and death and even death didn't embrace me? I was done with humans and their conspiracies and atrocities.

He cleared his throat and checked my pulses and I didn't know what he was doing. He was maybe satisfying that I was ready for another torture or punishment that I'm going to have for the mistake I did in past.

He did his work and I didn't object. He said that I was stable and wished me a speedy recovery and left me with nurse who was getting nervous in my presence.

I tried to smile at her, to make her believe that I'm not the same top ranked and high paid model that she should respect or to feel nervous around.

"How long I've been here?" I cleared my thought and asked her. My voice was hoarse which was already indicating that I was out for a long time.

"Two weeks, ma'am." She said timidly.

I was shocked that I was out for about 15 days. Why would I be here? And why anyone wanted me to be alive?

"Who took me here?" I asked suspiciously. I was dreading the answer. I didn't want it to be mom or Nick. The latter one was causing me to puke.