Twilight Collision: Falling Into Pieces

To Leave Behind

Drip. Drip. Drip.

Forty-eight hours, I listened to the sound of IV dripping as it coursed through Bella's unconscious body to give it sustenance while waiting for her to recover.

I had been staring at it all the time while waiting for any signs of Bella waking up.

I thought back at the moment that her blood coursed through me and it was more than what I had imagined it would taste like. I loathed myself for wanting the blood. I hated that I liked the taste and hated myself that I wanted to taste more of it. Even with the venom corrupting her blood, the taste was so warm and unbelievable that at one point, I wasn't sure if I was willing to stop. But I did.

I wasn't sure if it was because of Bella's soft murmurs, telling me that she was okay or when Carlisle came back for me, urging me to stop that helped.. I thought I had overdone it but Carlisle assured me that I was able to remove the venom out of her system.

He said that I saved her, but... did I really?

Looking at her unconscious body now and everything that happened, things couldn't get any worse.

After the incident, the whole house was in chaos. Rosalie and Emmett arrived with the smell of Bella's blood hanging in the air, food all over the floor, decorations in disarray and Jasper and Alice already gone.

"hmmm" Bella stirred and I was at her side in an instant.

"Edward" was the first thing that came out of her lips and she broke into a smile the moment our eyes met.

"I'm here, Love. How do you feel?" She made a motion of sitting up and I helped her so she can sit up on the bed slowly.

"I'm okay. My body is a little weird and I feel kind'a woozy" Leave it to Bella to make light of her near-death experience.

"That's probably because of the blood transfusion that Carlisle had to perform. You... lost a lot of blood."

She stared at me intently and I realized that she was looking straight into my eyes and I immediately looked away so she won't see the trace of the monster that I have become after drinking her blood.

"Don't" She held her hand up to my cheeks as she gently tried to turn my head back to face her. I eventually complied.

"Eerie..." She was staring like she was mesmerized and I felt like there was something that she wanted to say but was holding back.

"What is it Bella?"

Her face distorted "I'm going to sound like a sadistic human but... knowing that you drank my blood and is now, running through your system, I feel like a part of me is now tightly bound to you and somehow... I'm okay with that."

I froze in shock and I unintentionally glared at her. Who could she even think that drinking her blood was "okay"?!

"I know... I know... sorry" She closed her eyes and I did the same, trying to calm myself. I sat down beside her and she immediately leaned her head on my shoulder.

"That was a necessity... to save your life." I kept my voice neutral.

"I know. It's not like we're gonna make that a recreational thing. I'm not sure if I wanted to relive that moment" I cringed and then unexpectedly, she held my hand and her eyes were full of sympathy.

"I can't imagine the pain you all went through during the transformation. It must have been hard enduring that"

"It is. Except for Alice, we all remember all too well the pain that came with the change. It's not something to be taken lightly" I warned her. Maybe because of this, Bella would rethink her decision of becoming one of us someday.