Twilight Collision: Falling Into Pieces

Breakdown

"You're not bothered?" She asked and I looked at her in surprise.

"Bella, I turn into a giant wolf. Even though I still can't wrap my mind around you being from another world... heck, I still don't even understand it but having super strength and speed, I can take that."

"Point taken"

"So..." I started. "How fast can you get?" I asked curiously.

"Hmmm.... If I really focus, I can try to keep up with a ...vampire or probably with you." She hesitated. "Problem is, for them, they can go on forever without tiring. Unfortunately, I don't have that luxury."

"How about your strength?"

She tensed. "I never really got the chance to know the extent of it. They... the Cullens... they weren't taking any chances of testing it out... they were afraid that I was going to get hurt."

There it was. I noticed it again. Every time she mentioned those leeches, she was always struggling. It was as if she was trying to hold on to something or else she was going to break down.

"Are you... still hoping that they would come back?" The question caught her by surprise and she look at me like she was pleading me not to go there but the question was already out.

She stared back into the distance.

"I have to"

"What if they don't come back?" All this time, she had been hurting because of their disappearance and she couldn't seem to let it go but what if she can let it out in her system? Maybe she can move on.

Those leeches didn't deserve her. She definitely treated them like family and what did they do? They left her alone to suffer.

"Bella... you have to let them go... If they have already moved on... shouldn't you move on either?" I told her. Her hands were balled into fist and I could see her trying to keep herself together.

"I can't"

"Bella..." She turned to me and I saw such anger and hurt that I never saw in her before.

"Don't you understand?! I can't because they're the only family I know! I came in this world with nothing and they've given me everything! They trusted me with their secret! They took care of me like a daughter, a sister... a woman..." She dropped to the ground and tears started to fall but I could see that she was trying to fight back tears.

I suddenly regretted my decision of trying to let her deal with her feelings.

"Jake...I don't want to lose them... I don't want to lose him!"

"I'm sorry" I dropped to the ground with her.

"If only I was strong enough..." She suddenly said and I could hear the regret and anger in her tone.

"What are you talking about?"

"I was already strong but I was still human! If only I was strong enough for them... he wouldn't have stayed away!"

"Why should you be strong enough?" I didn't understand what she meant. She was human. Nobody expected her to be as strong as a vampire, even if she was actually strong as what she claimed.

"He was so afraid of hurting me... he loved me too much that he couldn't bear seeing me hurt! After I was almost killed by James and then that accident... he couldn't bear seeing me suffer and he left just like that!"

Her hands clenched into a fist and she punched the ground in frustration. "Ugh! I hate this!"

"I should have been strong enough!" She punched the ground again. I was suddenly afraid that she going to hurt herself.