It is evident that what magic was
To me, at sixteen, is different
From what it is now. On some days,
It makes me sad that to earn rent
Might qualify under such a category
Because the world has become harder to live,
Harder to breathe and harder to survive
With each day I keep my eyes open. To lift
Myself out of a self-created hole
Has also become something like an achievement
And for everyday I keep myself from the edge,
I pat myself on the back for avoiding a situation.
True love was magic for me. To find a person
That would stay with you for an eternity was
The best possible wish my heart could make
In light of the fairytales. It became a cause
For great disappointment when I realized
That love does not fill up a soul
Because there are many kinds of love in this world
And my focus was painfully small and unwhole.
So magic to me now is the ability to keep trying
Even though there had been pain, there had been wounds
But you never stop moving forward despite memories
And one day, you look back to see the many moons
You’ve left behind in recovery. Magic is
The sound of rain at midnight, and you know you get
A couple more hours of sleep and life
Seemed perfect at that very moment, when you forget
That there was nothing more to life than just living,
Breathing, survivng each scar you reopen
Because we are liable to do that and
That’s why there are stories written.
Magic is the feel of your fingers against a stone wall,
A wall you touched years ago and remembered,
Having the words to transport you back in time
When you knew more about life than when you slumbered.
Magic is knowing that feelings exist for a reason
And to feel an emotion so strongly is not a curse
But something you should hold keenly
In light of having to let go of people without a verse.
And magic is stepping off a boat into a land unknown,
The tears that you cry when you’re alone.
Magic is when you type words you never believed you could write again
And magic is feeling all the pain you’ve gained.
Magic is this poem, a poem I thought I had lost
When I turned away from everything I was.
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Poems for the Sad and Weary
PoesiaThis is my third book of poems and to be really honest, I'm thankful that I had even been able to finish the last two books. I feel like I'm a completely different person from the first book of poems I had started and that's okay with me. Maybe this...