"Morning Shawn!" I say walking into the kitchen seeing Jim's making some sort of drink. "Morning gorgeous!" He says with a smile on his face. I blush slightly but reply to his lovely compliment. "Have you even seen me, I haven't even brushed my hair or got changed yet!" I laugh. "Oh I have seen you and you look beautiful!" he whispers but loudly enough that I can hear him and he winks at me. "I just wanted to know what's happening today cause I don't know what kinda outfit to wear or what makeup, natural or glam. And my hair up or down!?" I stress to him and huff. "It's okay, you need to relax hun, you can wear anything you want, you will look stunning in everything!" He tells me looking into my eyes. "Someone has got their flirty hat on!" Bryan comes into the room "Oh I forgot you were here!" Shawn says and with that we all break into a laugh. "So um we are going to go to some studio and learn the senorita choreography." I nod knowing Camila would be their. "Don't look so disappointed, it will be fun!" He tells me. "Right, fun... it will be fun!" I say trying to put myself into a good mood.
I enter my bedroom and look at my suit case with all of my closet he's still in. "Hmmm lets me think, this could be cute..... or not!" I talk to myself. I finally find an outfit.
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"I guess this will have to do." I roll my eyes and get changed. Put my hair into a ponytail and straighten it a bit. I put light makeup on and pack my purse for the day. I walk out my room and see Shawn waiting for me "Hold on I need to eat!" I tell him. "There is some sort of breakfast bar in the cupboard" he points to the cupboard and get it out. "Okay I will be like 2 seconds I need to get something real quick!" I nod and he walks away searching for it. My phone buzzes and I see a contact come up. Jess ⭐️: 'Hey, I really think we need- the message cut of there so I had to click on the notification. I read it: ' hey I really think we should meet up or at least FaceTime about what has happened. I really have taken time process losing you. And over that lonely time I have realised that you are the light in my life. I miss you so much and I need you back. I need my bestie back. Call me when you can. Ily xxx 💖' "Seriously! Honest to god when my life was starting to turn around!" I laugh. I go to reply ' let's meet up for sure' but quickly delete it. And write this instead: I'm gonna be totally honest with you. I have been having then best time with my friends at the moment. And yes I'm gonna be a bitch and tell you that I need more time for myself. I have finally found happiness in my friend group and our friendship is toxic. I don't think the definition of a good friend or a best friend has the words hooking up with their ex in it. Look I don't want to cause more drama and tension between us, but if you cared for me you would give me space and time to enjoy with my new friends. I hope that this can one day put behind us, but for now I'm just enjoying life. I don't need negative energy and vibes around me to bring me down. Thank you for being there for me but I just think it's time to move on. Sending my love to you. Xx I hit send on the text. Was I harsh? No. Maybe. But at the end of the day she hooked up with my ex. My phone buzzes again and it said. I get it. I just am so sorry for hurting you and I wanted to let you know that that was never my intention. You know i will love you forever. I hope you have the best life. Explore the world. Find someone you fall in love with. Tell your new bestie gossip about the Kardashian's! I hope you have kids and I know you will be the best mum for them. And I think the FAR FAR future become a grandparent! And most of all I wish that in the future you will except my apology and we can find our way back to being friends again. Happiness is something I will forever wish for you to have. But also know that even if we are not as close as we used to be, I love you the exact same and that love for you will never go away. You will always have a special place in my heart. Now go and stop reading my text and have some fun! Thank you for being my best friend. I will be grateful for eternity! Xxxxxx I wipe a tear that falls down my wet cheek. "Okay let's go hun- wait ari, are you okay?" He asks me. "Yeah I just um, well Jess texted me wanting to know what the whole situation was between me and her. And um well you can read it for youself" I hand him my phone and he reads the message. "Wow i didnt know you meant that much to eachother. But it seems like you need a hug right now." He says pulling me tight. I burry my head into his chest. I look up at him and he kisses my head. I fall into his eyes. God I want to kiss him a bad. I wrap my arms around his neck. He moves closer. His lips almost touch mine hovering over. I then go in for it. I have to stand on my tippy toes to reach his mouth. Our lips move with each other's. I pull away but he crashes his lips against mine again. I open my mouth just enough for his tongue to enter. But then we hear a knock on the door. "Let's carry this on later" he smirks making me blush. "Okay lets go" Andrew and Brian stand wait for us outside. Shawn grabs my hand and leads me out to the hall way of the apartment block and locks the door. "Okay everyone so we are going to meet Camila there. But someone needs to pick up the choreographer up." Andrew says. "Okay well I will take ari in my car and you two go together." Shawn says leading me out. He opens the door for me like a gentleman. "Thank you!" I laugh. I climb in the car and plug my phone into the car so we are able to listen to music we wanted to. "Okay let's play this one!" I put on mercy and we start singing to it "YASSS FREE CONCERT!" I scream over the loud music making him laugh.
Skip the rest of the journey
"You know your an amazing singer when you don't scream the lyrics!" We burst into laughter. He pulls up to a studio and we enter the building. "Hey, what took you so long?" Camila asked laughing "Oh hi Ariana, didn't know you were gonna be here!" She said in a bitchy tone. "Well I'm here, right!" I laugh. Shawn's phone buzzes "Hold on one second ladies, it's just Brian" he exits the room "Why did you come here, huh? Your not even in the music video!?" Camila says. "Because Ima supportive friend to Shawn and I wouldn't want to leave him around you, you would be all over him!" I say flipping my hair and smirking. "I could say the same about you!" She replies. I roll my eyes at the terrible come back, and Shawn comes back "Okay bad news the choreographer is driving with Brian and Andrew, and they are all stuck in traffic! So we have to wait... or Ariana, you told me you took some sort of yoga course, could you teach us a few moves?" He asked with puppy eyes. "No, no, no!" I say "Yeah it's fine, her moves would suck!" Camila laughed and ari looked to the floor. "Come on cami don't be rude! Have a little faith in yourself ari!" He tells me which shuts cami up. "Fine! Just copy my every move!" Cami rolls her eyes. I fix my my hair and Shawn copies me. "Okay Shawn, maybe not my every move!" I laugh.
After I showed them a few stretches and yoga poses, Brian, Andrew and the choreographer come in. "Hey! We are all warmed up let's get this going!" Shawn shouts and we all laugh. About 5 minutes later Sinuhe comes in (Camilas mum) to watch the rehearsal. We talk for a little while and she seems really lovely. Cami clearly didn't get her nasty behaviour from her. I see a camera and Brian tells me that they are making a behind the scenes so I need to smile for the camera and talk to it a bit. "Action!" He shouts "So we are currently watching the rehearsal for SeNoRiTa!!!" I say in a funny accent. "And it looks awesome so far! So they are just rehearsing the dance scene at the moment! And I can't wait to see it in action!" I cringe saying that knowing that it is a very sexual dance and I have feelings for Shawn. "And I am hanging out with the one and only SINUHE!" I hug her. " so yeah i can't wait for everyone to see it! And omg Shawn just dropped Cami!" I laugh a bit but stop because I'm right next to her mum. "OMG SHAWN! WHAT DID YOU DO?" I laugh and I take the camera with me and start to film him. "I can't just drop Camila Cabello!" He laughs towards the camera. I turn off the camera and give it to one of the security. "Let's do a full run through if the dance!" I cringe so much through out the performance but half way through my phone rings "Oh um I'm sorry I have to take this!" I run into the corridor "Hello?" "Hi hunny, it's your mum....." "Mum you haven't called me in Months, why are you now?" I ask a little harshly. "It's um Jessica." "Yeah I know she texted me today, she wanted to become friends again." I tell her "Hunny I'm so sorry, she.... took her own life." I drop the phone and start to become light headed. "Hey everything okay I heard a loud noise?" Brian comes out from the rehearsal room. I turn around slowly to him tears just fall from my face "Omg Ariana! Ari? what's wrong?" He rushes over to me But as soon as he hugs into me my knees drop and I fall to the floor he holds me close to him while calling for Shawn. "SHAWN! SHAWN!" He shouts "wha- omg Ariana what's wrong!?" He runs over to me pushing Brian away from me. And he holds me close. "It's Jess, she took her own life! Because I- I wasn't t-there for h-her!" I sob into his chest leaving a wet patch in his shirt. "Oh ari, it's not your fault!" "THEN WHO ELSES IS IT, HUH? IF I HAD JUST BEEN A LITTLE SELFLESS AND SEEN THAT SHE WAS REACHING OUT TO ME FOR A REASON, I COULD HAVE STOPPED ALL THIS. IF I HAD TAKEN HER WELL BEING INTO CONSIDERATION SHE WOULD STILL BE HERE!" I snap at him. He strokes me back "Come on, let's get you home!" he replies. "WHAT HOME? I HAVE NO HOME, I CANT EVER STAY AT MY PARENTS, I DONT EVEN HAVE A ROOM THERE. MY EX ROOM MATE HAS JUST KILLED HERSELF BECAUSE I WAS A BITCH, MEANING I WILL HAVE TO SELL THAT PLACE. IM STAYING AT YOURS FOR A LITTLE WHILE BUT WHAT HAPPENS AFTER? I HAVE NO WHERE, I HAVE NO ONE!" I cry yelling. He says nothing but takes my to the car and drives me back to the apartment. "This is your home! And I'm here for you, forever and always!" He tells me and I just cry into his shoulder. He carries me to bed and both lay their until I finally cry myself to sleep. ~forever and always~
