*back to your pov*
I wake up to see Noahs side if the bed empty. I assume he's downstairs so I walk down the stairs. But he's not there. I call out his name but there is no answer. I check my phone to see if he texted me, saying he had to go, but there are no notifications. I feel myself start to tear up. Maybe he had work or Bryce called him, those were the best case scenarios. But I doubted it, hre would've texted me. I feel a tear roll down my cheek. He used me, he used me for sex, then he bolted, because he didn't like me enough to stay. Maybe I was stupid, stupid in thinking that anything he said was true that he really did have feelings for me. I slide down and wrap my arms around my knees sobbing in silence. I lean my head back on the wall and cry harder. Once I gather myself, I get up and put some clothes on. I grab my phone and start texting Noah. My finger hovers over the send button. But I don't send it. I shove my phone back in my pocket and take out my keys. I walk to my car. I need to talk to Bryce. I can't tell him about noah, but I just need my brother right now. I start driving to the Sway house and when I arrive I try to keep my composure secretly wishing Noah was here so I can talk to him. I walk into the house and I see all the sway boys in the kitchen, except Noah. I try to hide my surprise. Bryce comes up and hugs me "hey y/n you didn't tell me that you were coming over today" I says. "Yeah sorry, I meant to text you" I fake laugh. I join in playing ping pong with them and almost forget about Noah. Bryce takes his camera out and starts videoing us all. He comes up to me with the camera and places it on the table. "Ok, q&a time" he shouts. All the boys take a sit next to me on the couch with Bryce in my left, Blake on my right and Anthony behind me. Bryce starts asking all the sway boys questions. "So Blake, any girl you've got your eye on?" Bryce teases. Blake laughs and shakes his head, "nope not right now" he chuckles. "And Anthony, how are you and Avani?" Bryce asks him. "We are perfect, we've just had our 6 month anniversary and I could not be happier" he smiles. We all say aaaawwww in unison. Bryce asks the rest of the boys questions for about 10 minutes then says, "hey has anyone seen Noah?" Everyone shakes their heads. "I saw him in the house at like 10 last night but I thought he was just peeing" Jaden says. "He's probably off with a new girl" Bryce laughs. I hold back my tears well. "Hey, I'll be back, I just need to go to the bathroom" I say standing up. Everyone nods. I walk to the bathroom and close the door behind me. I sit on the bathroom floor and start crying silently. Of course, he does this all the time, sleeps with a girl then ghosts her. I lean up against the wall. I hear the door open, "hey yo- " Anthony looks at me wide eyed. "Omg are you ok?" He rushes to my side. I wipe the tears from my face, contemplating whether or not to tell him. "What if a guy came to you house and confessed his feelings to you, then you slept together and it was amazing, but you wake up and he is gone and no one has seen him" I say between sobs. Anthony looks at me taken aback. "I think that that guy is stupid to ever treat you like that, I don't want to say it but, I think he used you" he says cautiously. I bury my head deep into my knees. "Have you tried calling Noah" Anthony says. I look at him wide eyed. "What, how did you-" I say but he cuts me off. "I'm not stupid, I saw you to flirting yesterday and I saw him leave the house like 10 minutes after you, I kind of put 2 and 2 together" I said. I still looked shocked. "You can't tell Bryce, he will kill him" I say. "Trust me, if my intention was to have Noah dead I think I wouldve had it done by now" he says, trying to lighten the mood, but my face stays unchanged. "Look, if he really liked you, maybe he was just scared, he has never really gotten into a big relationship before, and him and Bryce are really close and he won't want to ruin that. But in the other side, he is known to jump between girls, sleep with her, break up and move on." Anthony says. "Look I don't know what your going to do but don't sell him off too easy, he's a good kid" Anthony says standing up, dusting off his pants and walking out of the bathroom, giving me a last look before walking out into the hallway. I gather myself and get up too, following him out and joining the boys again. "So y/n we are playing a game, so I'm going to ask a question and you have to answer which one in the room you would do" Bryce says. "Ok, me first" Blake says " ok, Bryce, out of everyone here, who would you kill" Bryce considers his answer. "Probably Quinton" he laughs. Quinton looks taken aback. "Because I think it's illegal to be that mature at 16, like I'm pretty sure he's like secretly 30 I stg" we all laugh. "Ok, my question now" Quinton says. "Y/n, out if everyone here who would you date?" He asks, laughing. I stay silent for a second. I need a safe answer like Blake or Jaden it something. I almost answer when I hear a knock on the door. Seeing this as an opportunity I get up and walk to the door. I open it and infront of me, staring at me in a similar expression of surprise, is Noah....
A/n hey guys, sorry that I have been so un-active. I recently lost a family member and I'm not taking it as well as I thought I would. But I'm having a lot of fun with this book so I'll try and stay as active as I can. I love you all🤍🤍🤍
