---I did nothing but understand and love my mother. No matter how much pain I accept because I can do nothing. But I received only bruises, wounds, slaps, kicks, hurtful words. I can tolerate everything because she is my mother, she gave birth to me. But I did not say I could mentally get the pain. No matter how strong I am on the outside, I am weak on the inside. I'm hurting too, mom. I just want to love and treat me as your child. Is that hard to do? I just want to be happy with you. As time goes on, I can feel the physical pain and my brain can no longer handle pain. Can I rest for awhile?
