Crying

eighteen

*Daytime Realm*

Ten shook the water out of his hair. He had taken a long warm shower after his nap. It has felt good to cleanse himself of all the blood.

Ten stepped out of the shower stall and wrapped his towel around himself. He looked at his reflection in the mirror. Though he had just rested, there were still two dark circles under his eyes.

"Ugh," he groaned. "I don't really look this ugly, do I?" As he was criticizing his face, someone pounded on the bathroom door.

"Ten I need to use to restroom please!" Hendery shouted in Chinese.

He swiftly pulled his towel together around himself and unlocked the door. "Sorry I took so long; bathroom is all yours Hendery."

With that he went to his room, slipped into some comfortable clothes, and grabbed his phone. "Okay what shall I do?" Ten pondered as he scrolled through YouTube. After about ten minutes of perusing the random videos on his stream he got bored.

He picked up his old tattered copy of 3s a Crowd from his floor. He read the first sentence and then put the book back.

Ten laid on his bed, staring at the ceiling until finally he couldn't take it anymore.

"Screw this. I need to talk to someone, anyone." He felt that if he didn't let his feelings out his heart would shatter into a million tiny pieces and be broken forever.

Unwillingly he tore himself away from the comfort of his bed and dragged his heels to the living room. He surveyed the room and his eyes landed on Johnny who was sitting on the couch, watching a TV show.

Ten sucked in a breath, clenched his fists, and went over to sit with the elder member. 

"Hey Johnny!" Ten chirped, trying hard to sound cheerful. Johnny's eyes enlarged when he saw the other member. He immediately flipped off the television and turned towards Ten.

"Oh hey! It's great to see you in a better mood. Are you feeling better about the thing?" Johnny blushed and put a hand on Ten's leg.

"Yeah, about that...." Ten played with his hair. "Could we talk?....."

Johnny pursed his lips and leaned back on the couch. "I'm all ears, tell me what you want me to hear."

The room was silent for a few moments until Johnny spoke again. "Okay that unintentionally rhymed and it was awesome."

Ten just nodded not knowing what else to say. Johnny was unique. "Yes it rhymed. Good job?...."

"Anyways I'm starting the story if that's okay with you." Johnny bobbed his head and Ten began. "So I know you like Mark. Imagine you two are in this situation." Johnny patted Ten's leg and Ten went on.

"And I don't like Taeyong. I love Taeyong. I have been since we first met. I just felt like our friendship was so strong even when we had just said hello for the first time and I couldn't live without him. I kept wondering how I managed to live before without knowing him. Taeyong is just the best and only wants to make us and Nctzens happy. Basically what I'm saying is I'm depressed without him. Without him. I want to have him back, I need to have him back. Without him, I'm just nothing. I know it sounds super cheesy but I really do miss him. And uh, I've kind of resorted to....." Ten rolled up his sleeve, revealing the multiple cuts up his arm.

"TEN!" Johnny shrieked. "YOU CUT YOURSELF?"

Ten shrugged and let down his sleeve.

"You shouldn't do that. It's a waste of time hurting yourself. Plus Taeyong wouldn't want you to do that. Heck, I'm telling you not to do that. Ten you're one of my closest friends. You can't do this. It's wrong and eventually the outcome could really hurt you." 

"I know!" Ten objected. "Listen, if your best friend/crush/lover ever just died-"

"He didn't die." Johnny pointed out. "He's in a coma. People wake up from those."

"Yeah but still," Ten pouted like a child. "You would be upset too."

Johnny grabbed both Ten's hands. "Yes of course I would be upset! I'm just telling you cutting yourself is not the answer. I repeat, it's dangerous and you need to stop." 

He lifted Ten's chin and looked into his friend's tear filled eyes. "Everything will be resolved soon, okay? Taeyong will wake up and everything will go back to normal like nothing ever happened." 

Ten shook his head and ripped his hands out of the other member's grasp. "But what if it doesn't? What if everything doesn't work out? What if.....what if he dies?! What if he's dead as we speak? What is he was already dead but they just didn't tell us? What if they're faking it because he's an idol and-"

"TEN SHUT UP!" Johnny interrupted him. "He's not dead. He will survive, I have faith." With those final words, he left Ten on the couch and entered the kitchen where the Dreamies were assembled.

Ten sat in the living room alone. He knew he had overthought and over complicated things but he didn't really care. All he cared about was not his own safety but Taeyong's.

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Ten flipped through the scrapbook filled with pictures of him and Taeyong. They were all so cute. Every page was an old memory, waiting to be uncovered and remembered. Ten chuckled as he looked at a picture of them at the beach. Ten wiped away a stray tear and pushed the book back under his bed where he kept his important things.

He sighed and hugged his legs close to him. "I hope you're okay. If you're dead, I hope you're in Heaven. I just want everything to be normal again. I love you Lee Taeyong."

Ten closed his eyes and could have sworn he heard someone whisper. "I love you Ten."

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I just realized like every chapter ends with someone falling asleep usually being Taeyong and/or Ten.......

The next chapter will be the first NEW chapter! I'm so excited to get back on track with this book! 

Yay! Have a great day friends and I love you ❤️ 

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