Mine (mid90s)

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He didn't say anything to the comment I made.

"You were different back at the party," he said.

"You made me mad last night"
he added as he played with his hands before looking at me.

"Fuck Brandon" he murmured.

"Fuck Stacy," I said

"Did you sleep with him?" he asked.

"Who cares if I did Fuckshit."
I said looking at him he made a look for a sec but didn't say anything.

"Ofc I didn't" I added.

"But I guess you fucked Stacy plenty of times"
I said as he saw me roll my eyes.

"It's always her," I said.

"She was never special," he said.

I scoffed at his comment.

"You looked happy with him last night"
He said.

I rolled my eyes again.

"We're just friends," I said.

"But y'all were acting more than friends last night"
He said with a scoff.

"Friends with benefits" I simply said.

"You told them that we fell out of love when really you cheated"

"You were an asshole towards me you know that. You went back to her."
I said as tears were already forming.

"I only used her to get back at you."
He said.

"You got me mad when you said I was a player but I'm not. I have n always will have feelings for you Steph."
He said.

"I thought having her would make you mad n jealous n you'd come back to me. But you didn't" he said coming closer to me.

"Of course I wouldn't run back to you. You cheated"
I said as I kept moving back from him.

"N I'm sorry for really I just I-" he said.
I interpreted him.

"Just what.
Couldn't keep your dick in your pants" I said.

He sighed

"I regret everything. I truly do Steph."
He said as he wiped my tears off my cheeks.

I moved my face out of his hand as more tears ran through my cheeks.

"I promise you I don't have any feelings for her or anyone."

I kept shaking my head.

"Steph I'm serious look at me." He said.

I didn't look at him but stare down at my shoes as tears ran through.

"Ik it looked like we were in love but I'm not. Not with her."

"I love you," he said.

I didn't say anything as everything happened so quickly I couldn't process.

"I-
I gotta go" I said as I got up.

He followed me going down the leader.

"Steph. Plz"
he continued following me inside the house.

"Fuckshit I- I-
I can't- "
I said as I couldn't finish my sentence to him.

I went to the room for Estee as I woke her up.
she barely got up n seen me crying.

"Hey wtf happened"
she said with her raspy voice.

"I just want to go home n I didn't wanna leave you here," I said

She got up quickly off the bed as she got her things. She was so confused as to why we were at Fuckshits room.

I opened the door seeing Fuckshit waiting.
I rolled my eyes heading to the front door with Estee behind me.

"Don't leave Steph."
He said grabbing my hand.

I flinched my hand out ignoring him as we left his house. He continued to follow us in the drive-through.

"So that's it?"
He said as we go on to Estee's car.

"Just hear me out"
He said as he hit the window.

I didn't look or say anything to him as we drove off. During the ride, it was silent until Estee spoke.

"What happened? Are you okay?"
she asked as her head was leaning against the window.

I rolled my eyes.

"We talked but I didn't want to hear him out I guess. I don't know" I said.

She didn't say anything but hold my right hand. She dropped me off at my house. As I entered my house my mom asked how the sleepover was n I lied.

I went to my room as I showered and got ready.
Hours later I laid on my bed as thought.
I got up to grab the phone. I take a big breath and dialed the number.

The line went through

"Hey," I said

"Hey," Fuckshit said back.

"Come over I'm ready to talk"
I said and he immediately agreed before we hanged up.

I was anxious as I waited for him.
10 min later I hear a knock through my window.

I opened the window letting him jump in. I sat back down on my bed as he sat next to the corner of my bed.

"I'm sorry," he said.

"I'm sorry for cheating on you Steph"
he said looking at me.

I didn't say anything.

"I like your shit I'm in love with you," He said.

"Please forgive me. I'm sorry" he said again.

I nodded my head as I spoke.

"I don't know I think we should just be friends," I said.

He immediately shook his head.

"I don't wanna be your friend. Friends don't have feelings for each other"
He said as he paced back n forth.

"I can't do that. be your friend" he added

"Fuckshit I can't trust you again," I said.

He was surprised and hurt from the face he made. He sat back down on my bed as he rubbed his eyes thinking.

He sat closer to me as he grabbed my hands.

"I'm sorry for the shit I did to you. I'm sorry that I was the biggest dick to you. I wish I never cheated on you Steph"
He said playing with my hands as he looked at me.

I removed my hands from his.

"I need time Fuckshit. I don't know what I want" I said.

He looked upset but understood. I hug him as I rest my head on his chest. As he wrapped me around tight.

"See you can be sweet when you to be"
I playfully hit his shoulder as we broke the hug.

He chuckled.
I put my head over his shoulder as he did the same. Both staring at my room.

"So what do we do," I said.

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Chapter 15 <3