Fine Line - Larry Stylinson AU

Hour 5

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I don't like doin intros much anymore sooooo, just here to say hi and enjoy! Lol

Also, i'm working on a Uni fic too😉

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Nessie💜
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The clouds were getting darker. Rain getting harder, the lightning illuminated the sad faces in the stuffy old room

"Taylor Swift?" Harry wiped his cheeks and stood up to stare out the window again. Somehow it helped him relax just a bit

"Yea. I met her through Ed. She just....she was there. She listened and cared." Louis sighed staring at the ground

"I drove you to it."

"So this was real? Not fake?" he sighed closing his eyes

"I thought I was just attracted to men, or just Lou. But...I felt things. I definitely am attracted to both, but men more. She made me feel, cared for though. And I did try to love her, but I couldn't. No. My heart was Louis'. But I tried for three months. She started to love me though. And it was hard to explain it to her. But what I never noticed was how bad Lou got with it. In some sense, I felt empowered knowing he felt how I felt watching him with Eleanor. But, it broke me when Zayn came to talk to me."

*

The streets of New York were beautiful at night. The noise of the city relaxed me. I had just finished packing to go on my trip with Taylor. I sighed looking down at my feet. It's a new year and i'm stringing along a lovely girl who I can't avoid forever, tell her the truth Harry

I was pulled out of my thoughts when the door to my room opened. Zayn walked in looking exhausted as ever and let out a strained breath as he looked over at me

"Harry. Mate. I know you two are mad and you found someone who could temporarily ease your pain. But bro....Louis did not handle your New Years kiss with her well. I mean-

"Is he alright?" I stood up and looked at him concerned, I will always love Louis

"Listen, these three months you've been with her have been hell for him. But he never said a thing to you because he knew this is how you feel when he's with Eleanor. But yesterday....that threw him over the edge. He hasn't slept at all. He cries and cries, screams. You're stronger than him and he knows that. That's why he took the beard, not you. It was to protect you but also himself. Because he knew he wouldn't be able to handle you being with someone else. So please, talk to him."

I sighed nodding and followed him to Louis' room. When I walked in, my heart sunk. He was on the couch, eyes red. A cigarette in hand. I sighed knowing he was in a bad place if he started smoking. I looked at Zayn and he nodded indicating me to walk towards him

"Lou?" his neck snapped and he looked at me instantly dropping the cig on the ash tray. He sat up

"I'll be with the others." Zayn walked out leaving me to join Louis on the couch

*

"I don't want to hear this part please." Doctor Hale looked at Louis, Harry silently crying as he stared at the window still

"In order to fix this, everything must come out Louis. You all have to relive it and really feel it so you can heal from it." he shook his head as the doctor turned to her paper in hand again, "Proceed Harry."

*

"You kissed her right on the dot. You love her too?" he hiccuped as he cried, I bit my lip trying not to cry too

"I don't. I thought I did. But, my heart belongs to you Lou. I didn't know how bad this was hurting you. I'm so sorry I put you through it." he sniffled getting closer and hugged me tight, my nose buried in his neck. The smell of the cigarette intoxicating me, for a second, I too wanted to forget it all

"I know how hard it is for you to see me with El, but i'm trying here Haz." I sighed pulling back and wiped his tears with my thumb

"I know. I'm so sorry. I always thought of you the whole time. I mean, I got this tattoo for you. I know you don't like them much but-

"I saw. I do love it." there was a short silence as he traced the large ship on my arm

"I'm going to end things with her this week. We're going on a small trip. I'll end things then. But...I do think we still need space." his blue eyes watered more and he looked at me sadly

"I know....you're still moving out then." I nodded bringing his face closer and I kissed him

"I fucking love you Tomlinson." he gripped my wrists and sobbed

"I love you too curly."

*

Harry opened his eyes wiping his cheeks and turned back to see Louis do the same. He then looked down at his arm and soothed his compass tattoo just as he touched his ship himself. Harry smiled

"Why are you smiling? You just told a heartbreaking part of your life." he smiled even more, the tears closing his eyes and he chuckled wiping them again

"They're just so connected. Look at what they're doing." Louis looked up at Niall's words, hand still on the tattoo as he looked at Harry and smiled too

Doctor Hale furrowed her brows and then her eyes slightly widened

"Oh wow."

"Yea. Do you see how strong it is now. They inked their story on their skin because they could never let it out into the world."

Doctor Hale sighed and put down her paper standing up to pace just as Harry sat back at his chair

"Okay. So you broke up with her. You moved out from your place together. Then what? This is literally two years, how does it get even worse after that?" Louis scoffed wiping his cheeks with his sweater paws and stood to sit in his chair again as well

"Management broke their promise and had a field day with Harry now being the most famous for having popular girlfriends. They took advantage of it and made him the womanizer."

"But they said as long as you were with Eleanor he didn't need-

"Exactly. But they didn't care. We had another meeting with them, but I still had to date Eleanor and he had to go on dates. This is how he met Kendall. And then he was with every fucking Victoria's Secret model in the book." Harry rolled his eyes looking away

"Okay wait a minute. Were all these short lived relationships real? Did they know about Louis?" he shook his head as he stared at the lighting

"No. Kendall later on. But the others...no. I couldn't say a word. And it was hard, but with some of them I did develop feelings. No matter how hard it is to say or for Louis to hear. But he was pushing me further away. I needed that love, that confort. I wanted it from him, but it was slipping away. I thought me living apart from him would help. Make us miss each other even more."

"I missed you every day." he finally turned to look at him and shook his head

"But you never did anything about it. On tour, i'd look at you, you'd turn away. In interviews, i'd look at you, you'd turn away. I tried talking to you, ignored me. Behind closed doors, I tried talking to you, but you'd run off to be with her. And every time we tried to be with each other, we tried to convince one another it was alright. But it wasn't. It was getting awkward. We'd fuck, kiss, smoke, pretended like it was just us. And by the morning, you were gone back to the actor you were so good at. I was breaking."

"So was I! But I still loved you to the core. Look at our bodies doc! We kept and kept on getting matching tattoos. We shared clothes. We mirrored each other. We still had our moments."

She sighed sitting back down and slumped in her chair

"I'm so perplexed. So let me get this straight. You were drifting apart but still pushed for this to work. Were you happy in the moments you still shared?"

"One hundred percent. But when he had to leave....it was hard all over again."

"It was hard for me too. That's why I did what I did in March twenty fifteen."