How does a Demon learn to love? DISCONTINUED/PUT ON VERY LONG HOLD

Chapter 11

"Y/N, do you know what love feels like?"

Que the choking on air.

"Uh...I-I'm not q-quite sure. W-why do you a-ask?" Great now I look like a stuttering fool.

"Well, I feel this strange feeling every now and then that I've never felt before and I was wondering what it is. I feel like I can't breathe and my mind won't keep any thoughts in it, what ever I was doing was now flown out of my head to never return. This sensation of wanting to see and be with the person all the time but not knowing why. What would one call that?" Sebastian tried to explain.

"You're not in love with Ciel are you?" I asked.

He gave me a blank stare.

"I was just kidding, but what it sounds like is what people describe as love but I wouldn't know. Why did you ask me?" I asked playing with the rose from earlier.

"Because that person is you."

My eyes widened.

"What?" I asked somewhat shocked but sternly.

"Are you upset? If so then we can forget this conversation happened." Sebastian said. Now I feel bad realising my tone.

"No, no. Not at all. I apologise for my tone of voice. I was just shocked. So what do you mean, why would you call that love?" I questioned.

"Well, yesterday Lady Elizabeth tried to explain how she feels about Ciel and it seems I get the same way around you." Sebastian said standing from the bench to admire the roses.

My heart stopped.

"Do you mean that?" I asked looking at my lap.

"Of course I do. A butler of the Phantomhive estate does not lie and always keeps his word." he said walking over to me and lifting my chin up. He stared in my eyes and I got flustered and tried to look away but his gloved hand caught my cheek.

"Do you not accept my feelings toward you?" Sebastian asked.

"Well, it's not that I don't but I just don't know how to return them. As well as my father, he has an issue with me being around men. If I can figure it out then j will tell you. that doesn't mean I don't fancy you though." I said taking his hands into mine.

"Of course. I understand, thank you for understanding." Sebastian said.

I stood up and pulled Sebastian up with me.

"Should we go back to the ball? I still have yet to meet Lady Elizabeth, she is here yes?" I said looking back at the mansion.

"Of course, right this way." Sebastian said taking my arm to lead me back to the estate.

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"I'm back father." I said opening the back door to the shop. The Undertaker wasn't there but it was around midnight so he is probably asleep. I took off my coat and shoes then wandered into the shop to check on him. He was sleeping peacefully looking like one of his customers in his custom coffin.

I sighed then kissed his forehead leaving a slight lipstick stain hidden behind his bangs. I retreated upstairs to sleep off the night. When Sebastian said he thought he is in love with me my heart just about came up through my throat. Hearing that he likes me could make me any happier but I had to compress my joy just for my fathers sake. What if he has a problem with Sebastian, I just don't want to tell him before he is rejected.

I hope I did the right thing.

I will have to talk to father in the morning and see what he thinks.

~~~~~~~Next Morning~~~~~~
"Father, I have something to discuss with you about. Do you have a minute to speak with me?" I said while putting the kettle on.

He smiled his what most people would think was a perverted smile but it wasn't.

"Of course. Only if you answer on of my questions first?" He said. I nodded my head.

"Does it have to do with the Phantomhive butler?"

How. The. Hell. Did. He. Know.

"You see the other day when your mail arrived, the butler had a conversation with me concerning you. He wanted my permission to pursue you as a love interest. I told him he could only if you were okay with it and that he wouldn't hurt you. You see, the butler isn't what he seems but you might have to ask him about that." he said.

Oh. Well that I guess makes sense. it also shows how caring Sebastian is and he really was being serious last night, but what did he mean by 'he isn't what he seems'? Oh well I will ask Sebastian when I see him next.

Well at least I have The Undertaker's permission but now the question is if I want to be in a relationship with him.

I then decided to just get dressed and go see him now. I raced upstairs without another word, then raced back down ready to go back the the Phantomhive's.

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A/N: YAAAAASSSSSSSS!!! I got Sebastian to admit he likes you first! Haha so I don't know if this chapter sucked or not but I didn't want to leave you on the cliff for too long.

I feel like I rushed his feelings but it's kind of what happened in that era you like someone then you go after them whether or not you know them lol. Kind of crazy right?

I wish I knew how to write better fluff :/ I really want to make the chapters more fluffier but idk how (._.) I suck at writing lol

Anyways....

I Love you!!!!
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