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Honey's p.o.v
Six months...

It has been six months since I last saw the boys..RM decided that letting me go was the best thing to do

We were all sad but we had to do what has to be done..I went back home and I told everyone at the company what me and namjoon agreed on (me being in a break and meeting hoseok by coincidence)

Andrew and I got back together but I can't lie...something doesn't feel right, I like his touches but they never were like jungkook's

I love his kisses but they never were like namjoon's

I melt under his gaze but it never was like V's

I admire his smile but it never was like J-hope's

Everything didn't seem right... Everyone told me that I changed but I kept telling them that I was okay although I, myself knew how much I changed but I can't help but miss them

'are you okay?' I heard a voice behind me, turning around to see Andrew 'never been better' I said smiling

'you don't seem alright baby boy... Is there something you want to tell me?' I just shook my head and gave him a small peck before going to the kitchen

Only to be held back by him and pulled into a steamy makeout session, I moaned a little in between the kisses making him smirk, suddenly a picture of jungkook popped up in my head only to make me push Andrew away

'baby what's wrong, you keep avoiding me since you came back' he said but I didn't answer, the only thing that I felt at that moment was guilt

Andrew was a great friend and an amazing lover but all I did was cheating on him and now hiding secrets...

I felt disgusting to the point that I wanted to vomit, I was playing with the person that gave me everything, the person that was my everything...but I didn't even have the guts to leave him

I kept using him for the past six months without considering his feeling, I'm such a bad person, I deserve death...

As I was walking out of the room he pulled me again 'bts are coming back from their world tour and the manager said that they wanted to choose who was going to debute' he smiled at me before wishing me good luck and letting me go

I love how he doesn't force me to do anything...he always asks for my permission before touching me in a sexual way, he never gets mad at me when I decline his touches

We haven't done anything but kissing for the last six months and I refused almost all of the kisses but he still treated me with all love and he didn't even complain once, he always tells me one thing "whenever you're ready" he says

I swear I don't deserve him I kept thinking about Andrew and meeting the boys after all this time

I kept asking my self what if they forgot about me...what if they didn't want me anymore...

I didn't notice a tear escaping my eye till I felt Andrew's hand whipping it he gave a concerned look but I just smiled and got out of the car

We went to the practice room, everyone was sitting down there waiting for BTS to show up, I sat away from Andrew and waited with the others, I was getting scared and impatient so I decided to go outside for a little but before I could hold the door knob the door was open revealing jin giving me a pure smile

Does he still remember me...do they still care...