being black is a struggle already but when you grow up in a black household it even worse. everything you do is judged by your parents and they always point out your flaws. it's always that's disrespectful when you try to stand up for your self. you...
All my life I have been in a toxic household but now it's even worse. Before I could handle it but now that my parents are divorced and I'm stuck with just my mom and my siblings it's awful.
I just hope that when I leave for college later this month that my dad comes and gets Tay and Cara because I do not want them to go through the pain, the hurt, and the depression I went through but that's beside the point.
Right now I'm packing my things up so they can get shipped off to Jackson State University. That's right I'm going to a historically black college.
I've always wanted to go here so I'm really excited to get away from my hometown. As I'm folding my clothes my mother burst through my doors and starts yelling at me
"Why the hell is my kitchen dirty huh"
I was about to answer until she interrupted me.
"Actually you know what I don't care just go downstairs and get my mother fucking kitchen together do you understand me."
I just nodded, grabbed my phone and AirPods, and headed down to the kitchen that Tay probably messed up but who cares because it's always going to be me cleaning it. 🧼🧼30 minutes later🧼🧼 After I finished cleaning the kitchen I went upstairs, took a shower and put on my work out clothes so I could go on a run
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slipped on my running shoes, put my AirPods in, and turned on J.Cole's new song and took off out the door ready to blow off some steam.
I jog down the hill to the trail that's near the park and as I pick up speed once I reach the trail the wind starts blowing faster and faster by my face, and I'm not going to sit here and lie and say it doesn't feel good because it definitely does.
After 10 minutes I reach the lake that's at the end of the trail and I sit by it.
I take my shoes off and stick my feet which scared off the fish that surrounded the area I was sitting at. I closed my eyes and relaxed but then I heard a stick break so I got up as fast as I can, put my shoes on and got into my fighting stance ready to kick some ass until I saw it was a cute boy with his long brown hair in a man bun and the prettiest gray eyes.
He was crying and I do not like it when people cry it makes me sad so I went to comfort him by giving him a hug. JR pov I was running away from my dad's house because my stepmom was having one of her daily fits about how I don't do anything around the house and how I was a disgrace to my father and his family.
I couldn't take it so I ran to my favorite stop but when I got there a girl no taller than 5'5 was standing in there looking awkward I was about to leave but she walked up and gave me a hug.
After the hug, she grabbed my hand and sat us down at the edge of the rock. She laid her head on my shoulder with her hand still interlocked with mine, she handed me one of her AirPods and we listened to wishing well by Juice Wrld.
After the song ended I decided to strike up a conversation. "hey wanna play 21 questions" she nodded so I started asking questions. " how old are you" "i'm 19 how about you" I said I was 20 and continued on with my questions. ❓❓20 minutes later ❓❓ It has been 20 minutes and now I know her name is Jupiter, she going to Jackson state university just like me, she has 2 siblings, I know she's single, and I managed to get her number after all of that.
You know what I'm proud of that too. But it was getting late so we had to part ways and go home for the night.
Jupiter pov I was walking up to my room when I got stopped by my mother as she yelled at me "Why do you always have to disrespect me" she started "All I ever do is care for you" I looked at her like she was crazy because she knows damn well that she doesn't care about me.
Even if she doesn't she could at least stop treating me like I'm a menace to society and I'm pretty sure she wanted to abort me too but my dad stopped her, but now I wish she did abort me.
I really do thank him for that but now I'm just don't want to be here if this is how it's going to be for the rest of my life.
I was taking out of my thought by a text message from Jr asking if I wanted to go to the park tomorrow I walked upstairs as I answered his text by saying yes with a smiley face.
Once I sent it I got undressed and hopped in the shower to get the sweat smell of me. 10 minutes later I'm currently getting dressed to go to bed but before I go to see I get a text from Jr that read goodnight I smiled at the text and shortly after I fell asleep.
