( Sebastian's pov )
I can't sleep anymore, since everyone found out we used steroids we lost everything our tile, our reputation but worst.. our friendship. Why I did it? Why followd hunter? He got suspended but everyone hates me now. Trears running down my face. I don't have a roommate anymore because hunter used to by my roommate, i miss him even he forced me to use the drugs. I miss his hugs, his kisses, him." I walked into the badroom and look in the mirror. " what happened to me?" I whisper. No one wand to talk to me. It's all my fault, i am an awful person.. frist i try to steal blaine, then i hurt blaine, than i blackmaild rachel and now this. I thought a new school would be better but no, i was so wrong. I thought if i hurt people maybe i feel better and maybe.. they can't hurt me.
I was bullied in my old school a lot, they called me names, they throw against the lockers, lock me up in a closet but worst of all.. thay beat me up. I was so scared the last time it happened i was so scared that i lock myself up in my room. My parents talked to the principal but he say. " that they bullying you for being gay is not our problem." I was so mad. What did he mean ' not our problem?' So my parents sent me to dalton because the zero bullie police. But.. i was the builly now.. and they did nothing to my behaviour because my parents handled it. But the reason i start building people was, because i was afraid to be bullied again. So i hurting people, so they couldn't hurting me. I start crying. I look at my clock. Almost time for school. I grab my uniform and backpack and walk out of my dorm.
* later that day *
I was at Lima bean looking for a table, I feel so lonely, I am still captain of the warblers but it's really different now. I walk to a table were someone qas sitting. " Hey, can I.. Kurt?" " oh, Sebastian." He say. " can i sit here?" I ask. " yhea sure.." he say softly. " so.. how you doing?" I ask. " why you care?" He ask rude. " sorry.. i just wanted.." " finn past away." He sighed and start crying. " I'm so sorry Kurt.. really I'm so sorry." I say. He nob. " thanks.. what about you?" " everyone hates me, after we used steroids by nationals." I say. " yhea.. blaine told what happend. Why? Why did you use steroids?" He ask. " hunter forced me, he.. he told me that he would broke up whit me if I didn't do it." " what? You were dating?" " yes, and he also said.. nobody would love me. So yhea.." " so they still mad at you." I nob. " kurt.. I'm really sorry how I treated you, really.. i feel really bad for everything i did.. but the reason was.. i was bullied at my old school, so.. when I transferred school.. i decided to hurt people so they can't hurt me." I cried. " wait.. you were bullied? Why? I mean.. you have everything?" " right.. they bullied me because I was gay." He sighed. " i know how it feels." He say softly " i was so scared, they.. they locked me up in a closet for 2 hours." " omg! And what say your principle about it?" Ask Kurt. " nothing. That's why I transfer to dalton." I say. " but.. why don't tell the warblers what you just tell me?" Says kurt. " they don't listen.. but i have to go.. thanks for listening." I say and grab my coffee. " yhea.. no problem. " he say.
( Kurt's pov )
I feel bad for Sebastian, okay he was mean to us, he hurt blaine, blackmaild rachel, but he needs a second chance because i know what it feels to be bullied. So i think we need to help him.
" where were you?" Ask blaine. " at Lima bean. I saw Sebastian there.." " ow.. how is he?" Ask blaine. " wel.. listening you have know this." I say and tell him everything. " wow, but what we gonna do, we need to help him." " but how?" " i ask. " let's talk to the warblers." Say blaine and grab my hand.
( blaine's pov )
We drove to dalton. " what if they don't wanna listen? Or something bad happened to him." I ask. " i don't know, But they have to know this.. they are his team.. i mean, we should do the same thing happens whit our friends." Kurt say. " yhea.. but we were never mean to someone or cheating during a competition." I sighed. " okey we never cheated but mean to people.." laughs Kurt. I smile. " okay we here." I say and grab his hand. " hey blaine! Kurt!" Smiles jeff. " hey jeff, how you guys doing?" I ask. " it's okay how about you?" He ask. " well a lot stuff happened. But we wanna talk about whit all the warblers.. except off Sebastian." Say kurt. He nob. " okay go to the choir room, i see you guys there." He say.
* later *
" so you wand to talk?" Ask David. " yhea.. i saw Sebastian today.. and.. he feels really bad about what happened. " say kurt. " you sure about that? He ruined our hole group! And out reputation." Says wes. " we know.. but maybe.. talk to him he had a reason. He feels really bad, and I don't wand something happens to him." I say. " okay...let's vote. Should we talk to him?" Ask Wes. And everyone raise there hand. I smile. " thanks guys." Say kurt. " i wanna stay but.. i have to go back to new York," say kurt sadly. " that's okay.. and thanks for telling us." Says trend. We nob and walk back to the car.
( Sebastian's pov )
I was laying on my bed, alone. But I'm glad i told kurt what happened. " Sebastian? Can we talk?" I hear someone asking. " yhea, sure." I say and open my door. " come to the choir room, everyone is waiting." Says nick. I nob. " what's wrong?" I ask as we walked inside. " well.. kurt and blaine came here today and they were really worried about you," says Wes. " ow.. yhea.. i told him what happend.. and the reason why I did it." I say softly. " can you tell us?" Ask jeff. I start crying " i feel so bad about what happened and I'm so sorry! I'm really really sorry, I didn't mean to ruined everything. But.. but.. hunter and I were dating and he told me if i didn't forced you and didn't take the steroids he would braking up whit me. I really loved him and I didn't wand to lose him." I cried. " but why? I mean that was wrong." Says trent. " he said.. if he broke up.. nobody would love me like him.. because he was right no one love me." " what do you mean no one love you?" Ask David. " i.. I was bullied at my old school, I had no friends or anyone who protected me there, so after I transfer here.. i decide to.. hurt people so.. they can't hurt me.. to protect myself." I cry. " I was so scared! I didn't wand to be bullied anymore!" " you wanna talk about? I mean.. most of us have been bullied." Says jeff. " i don't know.. it was terrifying.. thay call me names, beating me up, throw me against the lockers , lock me up in a closet but worts of al.. and i don't tell kurt this but.. one of my bullies brought a gun to school and.. she brought me to the back of the school where there are no cameras.. so he put the gun to my hand and threatened to kill me." I cry really hard right now. " that's terrible! And what happend next?" Ask thad. " my parents talk to the principal but he didn't help me.. because I was gay.. so we went to the police but I was to scared to go back.. so my parents decided to transfer me here." I start crying again. I feel so scared now and I don't know why. " aw were so sorry about that, but why didn't you tell this we should help you." Says trent. " i don't know.." i cried. " come on, let's go lay down." Say thad and help me up. But my legs are shaking so I hold on trent and we walk to my dorm. He lay me on bed. And help me out my uniform. " thanks.. and sorry I kicked you out." I say softly. " it's okay.. actually I didn't want to tell you used steroids but.. it was wrong." He say. I nob. " no it's okay.. is it wrong I miss.. hunter?" I ask. " you really loved him aren't you?" He ask and put the covers over me. " i don't know.. i just mis someone who loves me." I say sadly. " we all love you, no matter what and we protect you." Trent smile. " thanks.. I love you to." I whisper and close my eyes.
