Il mio amore a volturi LS

Back to Italy

Violets POV Three weeks later

I spent three weeks home. While everyone watched me like a hawk. It was a bit creepy, but I really think it's out of love. I think. Pops always asking if I'm alright. Or checking up on me. Honestly it's getting a bit annoying is all. I mean I love my family. But it's kinda getting annoying and sad. I mean they all have someone, well almost everyone. I'm alone. I don't have that someone to love me like they do. I mean I think I did. I used to.

I had a talk with Bella and I told her what I was. Since she knew what they were. It was only right that I told her. I mean she did see me transform into a giant ass cat. That's some red flags there. So yeah I kinda had to tell her. I think we've gotten closer then we've ever had. We understand each other. But I think it's time I get back with my class in Italy. Pops came up with a story, they think I came back to see my sister and I stayed for a little bit to watch her. But now it's time for me to go back. I need to go back. I haven't experienced everything yet. I need to go back.

And that is why I am here in a cab in Italy. Looking at the street lights that were on. It was night time and I was being drove back to my hotel. Once we got there the cab stopped and I got out. Giving the man a nice tip. I waved nicely at him. I made my way into my hotel and walked into the elevator. I pressed my room level. The music in the elevator was catchy. I started to dance a little bit. Hmmm. Once the doors opened I walked out of the room, I walked down to my room and Unlocked it. I opened the door and I walked inside. Mmm. Smells like it's been cleaned. Nice. I dropped everything either on the ground or on the table. And then just face palmed into the bed sheets. Awww finally, peace at last. I didn't even get up to take a shower. I just wanted to sleep. So that's what I did. I closed my eyes and fell asleep. I'll go exploring tomorrow.

^o^o^^o^o^^o^o^^o^o^^o^o^

The next day I woke up and took a nice warm shower, washing off everything. My fingers grazed over my scars. Over the bite mark scar that rested on shoulder. I'll always have a reminder. Always. I sighed and got out and dried off. I did my hair and then got dressed. I got out of the bathroom and put on some sandals. I was good to go. I grabbed my phone and left after locking the door. I walked down to the elevator. I felt better today. Better then I did yesterday. Mmm. I waited for the elevator to finally stop, then I got out and walked out of the hotel. This time I didn't wait for a cab. I was going to walk today. I made my way down the sidewalk. Looking at all the buildings and little shops that I've bought things from. And then my eyes gazed onto the castle like building. Hmm. I wonder what's in there? I'll have to ask later. Maybe it's a really cool tour or something. Maybe later. I've got things to look at first. But then I felt my stomach growl at me. I blushed. Maybe eat something first. I made my way over to the nearest food vender.

I got me a nice big breakfast burrito. Mmm. Put some hot sauce on it and it'll be perfect. I stuffed my face full of food and soda. Yeah I know, soda in the morning? I need something to keep me up today.

But honestly it was good to be back in Italy.

'What you don't have now are decisions
No, your tears won't work this time
If I second-guess intuition
Then it's not mine
It's not mine'

I walked down the sidewalk with other people. I can hear so many people talking. But it was relaxing and peaceful. I felt at peace for once in my life. I sighed in peace. This was the life. Just to be me, to be alone and be in peace. It might sound like it's depressing. But it's not. Being by yourself is not depressing. You just need some me time so time and that's what I'm getting. Some good old me time. I might admit that I might get a little too much of it. But it's okay I guess. This way I can't get hurt.

'I don't know where we'll go from here
Or why this love has disappeared

Where we land is never where we thought

Not all who wonder are lost
Not all who wonder are lost

What I'm searching for is the searching
It doesn't matter what I find
I don't know too much, that's for certain
But I don't mind
I don't mind'

I smiled at whoever looked at me, I smiled at people when I walked into stores or restaurants. It wasn't so bad. It might not be the same as it is at home, but I'll make due. I always find a way to. I have to. It's my way of living. I'm done in before and I'll do it now. It's no biggie. It's not like there's anything else to hurt me. So I can lay low and be at peace for awhile and not think of anything else. I mean we have a couple more months here and I couldn't be happier.

It's good to be back in Italy. It's a beautiful place to be and live.

But something was missing and I knew exactly what that was.

I sighed. I can never get away from it.

'I don't know where we'll go from here
Or why this love has disappeared
Where we land is never where we thought

'Cause I'm not moving aimlessly
And time is not a threat for me
I won't fight the fears you never fought

Not all who wonder are lost
Not all who wonder are lost
Wonderlust
Wonderlust
Wonderlust
Wonderlust

Not all who wonder are lost
Not all who wonder are lost
Not all who wonder (are lost)
Not all who wonder (are lost)'

Like I said. I can make due. I have and always will. To be able to survive.

I have to.