his happy ending

guilt{4}

You arrive at Penelope's bat cave and see her facing her computer, you walk over to see her jaw dropped in awe while she tries to do some paperwork. You tap on her shoulder and she looks up at you and smirks.

"What did he mean by last night?" she says pushing an answer

"pen its nothing ok! promise not to tell anyone what you heard?" you said concerned looking into her eyes.

"Fine! but I need answers eventually y/n!" she said spinning back around doing her paperwork

You roll your eyes a sigh realizing that you had to use the bathroom because you couldn't earlier because of spencer. You walk up to the door and its locked, its a public bathroom with multiple stalls, why was it locked? You put your ear to the door and hear nothing, just silence. You knock and hear no response. You walk back to the bull pin and you don't see spencer, assuming he's somewhere else.

You grab a pocket knife from your desk and walk back to the door, you pick the lock and open it slowly, seeing no one in sight. You go and open all the stalls until you come to one. It doesn't open, you peek under and see spencer's shoes and then, blood and a needle.You rush and climb under the stall and see him passed out, you put your fingers to see if he has a pulse. He does, you sigh and then tears start running down your face, you rush out and alert Morgan who was standing with JJ.

"MORGAN, ITS SPENCER HES HURT" you say screaming and sobbing at the same time

You watch him as he drops everything in his hands, as does JJ. You all go back in the bathroom and Morgan tells you to get hotch and call 911, you do and hotch seems like he knows what happened. But how you wonder, you couldn't really think about it because you were too worried about spencer. The ambulance arrives and you insist on going with him, as they load him in and hook him to there machines it reminded you of your dad when he passed in the hospital. He died of cancer when you were 7 and still haven't got over it to this day. You come back to reality and realize that you started holding his hands no remember doing it. It reminded you of this morning when everything was good, when he was there.

You just stared at him for a few minutes and you get distracted by the machines, he's flatlining. You start to panic and then see the paramedics shoot something up his nose. His heartrate goes up again and you sigh in relief. You arrive at the hospital and they rush him into surgery, wait surgery? You ask the nurse why he needs to go into surgery and she says he had a pretty bad head injury and a overdosed mixed together. You start to cry a tell the nurse thank you. You go and sit down and a few minutes later you see the team walk in.

"Aw y/n!" pen comes running over to you and starts hugging you and you hug back sobbing into her shirt

"he... I shouldn't of left him! its all my fault!" you say looking at Penelope.

"Y/n its not your fault.. we got word from a nurse downstairs and it was reids fault! not yours you hear me!" she says with concern

You just look at her and you both sit down, you look over at hotch you could tell he was distressed. Morgan was pacing and JJ was just sitting there staring at the surgery doors waiting for them to open. Fast forward a few hors later and a doctor came out of the doors. You stood up and walked up to him, the rest of the team did too.

"He is ok but he had a pretty bad fall, he could of died if you had not found him at the time you did, he's not awake but he's getting placed in his room." he said

"Thank you" hotch said

You and the team walk in and see him, he had a bandage around his head. You sit down next to him and hold his hand. The rest of the team stay with you for a while and you finally convince them to go home an sleep. They all eventually give in. At this point its 3am and your exhausted as well so you fall asleep next to spencer, cuddling him. You wake up the next morning around 10am and look up at his face, he's awake? You immediately rub your eyes and relize that he really is awake.