All By Myself...

Chapter 3

Niall's POV

"Welcome home Niall."

I know I had wanted it, hell I practically begged her for it. But now that it was coming true I felt nauseous. I think Luke could tell too because he guided me upstairs again to the last room in the hall, I had never been in here before.

My mind was
to caught up in tonight's events to take in my surroundings I felt a soft bed cushion my fall and I looked up at Luke once more before I passed out. The last thing I remembered was hearing Luke mutter, "I hope you still want this like you used to." after a second he whispered "We could take them all down, every last one." More to himself then to me but I barely caught his words.

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The next morning I woke up in a heap of twisted sheets. I shot up in bed trying to take in my surroundings then I remembered the events from last night, vaguely.

I heard the door open and slowly Nick walked in holding a glass of water and bottle of pain killers. Thank god. He handed them over and I took them gladly downing the glass and setting it on the bed side table. He took a seat in a chair by the bed I don't remember being there.

"Niall, I-" He looked for words but it was no need I know what he was going to say.

"Just because I was drunk doesn't mean I don't still want in." I said looking him in the eye to show I meant it. Luke's whispered words playing over and over again in my head.

"Only if your absolutely sure." Je waited for me to object but it was no use. He sighed sitting back in the chair. "You've got balls if you still want this after everything that's happened, everything you've seen."

I fought the images of me sitting in a pool of blood holding my lifeless loves body in my arms as her body drained of all it's blood. "When do I start training?" I desperately tried to change the subject.

" I think we can hold off for a few day. Luke will bring you here after school everyday from now on, and you'll be under his wing. No more slip ups like last night, got it." His voice changing to take the role of a ruthless gang leader. "If Luke says something you listen."

I nodded, becoming aware of a very dull ache in my knuckles and back. "Then when your ready come down stairs and meet your new family." he said as if they had changed identities over night.
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Nick's POV

Niall bounded down the stairs as I was putting on my jacket to leave. The house filled with a joyous chorus of hoots and hollers. Welcoming Niall as one of ours. The house hadn't seemed so happy in a long time and while they cheered on the "new kid" I couldn't partake while I still second guessed letting him in.

I left the house driving to find some answers. I drove for almost half an hour before I pulled up to a pair of closed gates. I stepped out of my car looking for a way over the gates so I could get what I came for.

Once I was over I walked down countless rows of names until I came to the three stones all marked with the same last name. I sat in front of the newest stone all three decorated with a bouquet of flowers. But the flowers weren't dead.

With the cemetery being closed with no one around I found my self letting out my frustrations to the stone out loud.

"I'm not sure I can do it. I had always lead under you, and when it wasn't you there was her." I looked to the side where a new stone should be. Under the circumstances it had been a 'rescue mission' with no time to waste. I still regret leaving her body but there was nothing we could have done. So with no body there would be no stone, nothing to remember the girl who died so young.

"I decided to let Niall stay, even though I know Layla would have hated it. There's something about him that makes me believe he has nothing left but, well but us. He put his life with her and now he's left with nothing. Maybe I just feel sorry for him. But he has the same desires as you and her, and you guys could have taken the world. He wants revenge."

I remember the look on Niall's face when I talked to him this morning, I had seen it before. With him after he had to take his parents place. And with her after she had to take his.

"I'm afraid." I admitted to no one. "I'm not afraid of Ed or of the other gangs. I'm afraid of making a mistake, choosing the wrong things and costing everyone. I'm afraid of more blood shed, they have lost enough and I don't want to loose any one else because I messed up."

"Maybe I'm over thinking things, maybe he'll be great and we will be okay. I don't know." I sat in front of the stone thinking about weather or not I had just made a big mistake. Even those who didn't want him in last night have accepted it now and are even happy about it. Maybe he'll prove me wrong.

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A/N :

Sorry guys I've been terrible about posting but here another short chapter to hold you over. It's a sucky chapter but I'll try and post soon to make up for that. So you can comment, vote, do both, or neither, either way I love you guys❤️