12:02 AM
Crying alone in the veranda of her house, listening to music So-Ah recalled everything that just happened a few hours ago.
11:45 PM
"SO-AH!!" her mother screamed while she was browsing her phone. So-ah shot up, wondering what she could have done wrong this time. Her mother burst into her and her sister's shared room holding her water bottle in one hand
Shit thought So-Ah, she knew what was coming.
"SO- AH, DO YOU WANT TO KILL ME!!?? HOW HOT WATER DO YOU GIVE ME!!?? I BURNED MY TONGUE!!"screamed her mother at the top of her lungs
"But omma, you told me to fill that hot water. It's the same temperature as last time, you say it'll cool down by morning-" So ah tried to defend herself in vain.
"IT WILL COOL DOWN BY THE MORNING BUT ATLEAST CHECK IF IT IS OKAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO DRINK IT!!! MY WHOLE CARPET IS WET! YOU WILL DRY IT TOMORROW! NOW GO FILL COLD WATER!"
So ah couldn't say anything so she just got up, keeping her eyes glued to the ground, she took the bottel and went down stairs to fill cold water. She heard her mother shout from upstairs "So busy in doing nonsense you don't pay attention to important things!"
You think you are important to me? You think anyone in this fucking family is important to me? You think filling your water bottle is important to me? She thought to herself.
Suddenly she heard her mother scream at her elder sister "WHAT ABOUT YOU? CANT YOU FILL WATER? ALL DAY JUST LAYING IN BED AND DOING NOTHING, YOU ARE IN COLLEGE NOW!! CANT YOU DO ANYTHING? 쓸모없는(Useless in Korean)!!"
So ah's blood started boiling. You're angry at me, why are you taking it out on sister? She made you dinner yesterday, she bought dinner today and fucking went out to bring your medicines again!! JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE ANGRY DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN TAKE IT OUT ON ANY FUCKING PERSON YOU WANT!! She wanted so bad to say all this to her mother, but she knew she couldn't. Sorry sister, sorry I can't say anything, sorry I don't have courage, sorry I don't have a backbone, sorry I don't have a fucking voice of my own, sorry I'm such a fucking pussy. She silently cried. She died her eyes the best she could and went back upstairs to give her mother the water bottle back.
"CAN'T YOU FILL WATER PROPERLY?? YOU DO NOTHING ALL DAY AND THEN THIS? CANT YOU LEAVE YOUR BTS AND SHIT AND CONCENTRATE FOR ONCE??!! WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?? YOU WILL NOT BECOME ANYTHING IN LIFE!!" screamed her mother, again.
Aish, why is this woman always so loud, does all she know how to do is shout? Why is she making such a big deal out of this? The hell does BTS have to do with this? she thought to herself.
"THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE IS WHAT MAKES A FAILURE, NOW GO!!"
Tears brimmed So ah's eyes, threatening to fall any second. She rushed to her room, grabbing her phone and earphones and ran to her veranda before her sister could see her tears.
PRESENT TIME, AFTER MIDNIGHT
So ah silently bawled her eyes out while listening to We are bulletproof: The Eternal, calming her slowly. She listened to the melody, the lyrics-
[Verse 2: j-hope]
Ay, we bravely shout
"Throw all you have"
First fight with the world
Don't wanna die
But so much pain
Too much cryin'
So blunted blades
[Pre-Chorus: V, Jin, Jungkook]
Oh, I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I
We were only seven
I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I
But we have you all now
After seven winters and springs
At the tips of our entwined fingers
Oh I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I
Yeah, we got to heaven
[Chorus: Jimin, V, Jungkook, Jin]
Throw stones at me
We don't fear anymore
We are we are together, bulletproof
(Yeah we have you have you)
Even if winter comes again
Even if I'm blocked off, I will still walk
We are we are forever, bulletproof
(Yeah, we got to heaven)~
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Alone
General FictionA teenager's life is falling apart, the only thing keeping her together is her music. How long can she endure? How long can she act like she is fine? How long will she stay ALONE?
