I'm Sorry I'm Not What You Wanted

Life In My Eyes

Everything stops

Everything is still

Everything is silent

Every creek

From the floor boards

Every crack

Made in the walls

Every gaze

At their faces

Every tear

From their judgement.

Yet, they don't know you at all.

Who really does in this world?

Others like us?

The total strangers

Who seem to be able to love us

More than the people in front of us.

We are a different kind

A different spieces, to you.

We see the world around us

Differently than you do.

We see it as if Death was safer

As if Death was kinder.

As if Death was nicer.

As if Death was easier

As if Death was more apealing.

As if Death held out his hand polietly

And invited me inside.

It would actually be my choice

To stay or to go.

Life didn't give me a choice.

I got stuck here with no one

Life didn't hold out her hand polietly

And invite me inside.

She pulled me inside

And locked the door

So that i couldn't go back.

Death saw I was in trouble

And he offered his assistance

I spent a lot of time with him

I always think about him

And one day

I know i'll get to meet him

And I can finally take his hand

And go inside.

Sometimes I try to leave early

To go and finally meet Death

But everytime I try

Life doesn't let me

And she pulls me back in

And punishes me for trying.

With every gaze

From their faces

And every tear

From their judgement.

She punishes me.

But one day

I know i'll get to meet him

And i can finally take his hand

And go inside.

(t.s)