Tutor: My Lover |+21|

I hate it here

A/n: This was slightly rushed so please bear with me and my grammar mistakes.

My mouth went agape as my eyes grew unbelievably wide. This can't be happening, this shouldn't be happening.

"Welcome back little lamb."

I wanted to rip his teeth out and shove them up his ass. I wanted to push him down the concrete steps of the house just to drag him back up them and push him back down again. I wanted to put him in a chokehold and make him feel the different type of toxic pain I was in for years.

"You bastard! You followed me home! Didn't you ruin my life enough!?" I yelled at the top of my lungs and grabbed one of my suitcases and chucked it at his head but sadly he was quick to dodge.

"Yah! Y/n! What's gotten into you!?" Yoongi yelled right before Hoseok came and picked me up in a bear hug to restrict my arms but that didn't stop my legs. I kicked violently in that bastards direction but missed every time.

"So much for a warm welcome." I hear from Yoongi who was tiredly rubbing his nape. "Let me go! Let me go before I beat the breaks off you and use your unconscious body to beat him the hell up!"

Yoongi sighed while sucking his teeth, "Y/n! Calm down or we're putting you back in the car! We'll let you go if you calm down!" Yoongi shouted.

This is where my body shut down and I stopped moving. A plan was forming in my head but I just had to play it cool for now. "Good.. Now let's go inside and talk."

We were escorted inside and brought to the livingroom where Jeongguk and Taehyung were sitting on the couches. "My little idiot is back home!" Taehyung brought me into a hug and sat me beside him.

I was stuck between Taehyung and Yoongi on one couch and the couch in front of me being blocked by the low coffee table was Hobi, Joon, and Gguk. Namjoon was directly in the middle of the two which meant he was in front of me, my death glare was piercing through him.

His face showed nothing but discomfort and guilt. "So then... Why'd you both come back? At different times at that." Yoongi asked looking at me then at Namjoon. Once Namjoon opened his mouth I basically moved at the speed of light and leaned over the coffee table and yanked him by his shirt to the floor.

"You sick bastard! I hate you! I hate you so much! You hurt me! You manipulated me! You used me! You knew how young and naive I was and you took advantage of me! I gave up my life for you!" I shouted, tears formulating in my eyes as I repeatedly attacked him with all my brute force.

"Yah! Y/n! Enough!" The boys shouted one after another almost in complete unison. But their silly tugs at my body and words weren't going to stop me. I had pent up rage and unreleased hormones tucked away for so long and he's going to receive every inch of my pain.

"I hope you break your neck! I hope you break your spinal cord! I hope you cut your hand on some glass! I hope a homeless person beats you up and spits on your ass! I hope you fall on some gas! I hope you fall down some stairs and fuck your knee up! I hope you get into a fight at Walmart and get beat up!"

After a while of attacking and shouting at him, along with me crying, I was finally pulled off of him and held tightly in the comfort of my brothers arms. I was wallowing in pain.

"How could you!? I trusted you!" I shout this time at Taehyung while I began to lightly hit his chest due to lack of energy and my overwhelming emotions. "Y/n I'm sorry.. Namjoon told us a little of what had happened between you guys and we wanted to know your side of the story so we-"

"You tricked me! You basically trapped in here and forced me to face this-... This asshole! How fucking could you!?" I managed to gain enough energy to push Taehyung away from me and run up the stairs heading to my bedroom.

I locked the door and pushed my desk with all my might to block the door. My hands were now combed in my hair tugging at it, "I fucking hate you! I wish I never met you! I wish I wasn't so stupid and blind! I wish I could go back and make us never go through with the shit we did!"

I continued to scream, cry, yell until my emotions grew more and clouded my thoughts and actions. I ended up trashing my room. I through my old things to the floor, emptied my closet and dresser by throwing clothes to the floor and pulling out the drawers of the dresser and throwing them. I shattered my mirror and destroyed my bedside table.

It had roughly been three hours till I was fully able to calm down. I was laying on my bed, my pillow soaked on one side due to excessive crying. I lost my phone in the process of trashing my room so I couldn't check if anyone tried calling me.

"Y/n? It's Jeongguk.. I promise you I'm alone." I heard his voice through my door it was accompanied by a knock. "Please go away. I really do want to be alone."

"Yeah I know you want to be alone.. Why don't we be alone together? I promise it's just me. I'm really just worried about you."

His soft voice coated with his light words made me ache. I slowly got up from my bed, I was so physically drained I don't know how I'm even standing. "Once I open the door you're going to have to climb." I warned as I unlocked the door and allowed him to enter my room.

Jeongguk looked around my disastrous room once he opened the door. "I honestly didn't think you had it in you to destroy this.. Especially since Taehyung worked so hard to keep it perfectly intact for you." He mumbled as he climbed over my desk and closed the door.

After he reminded me of the hard work and how much this meant to Taehyung I broke down again but Jeongguk was at my aid. "I-I ruined it.. He just wanted the memory of my youthful self to continue by leaving my room the way it was and I ruined it.." I mumbled and cried uncontrollably in Jeongguk chest as he slowly guided me to sit on the floor with him.

"It's okay. I'm here, I got you. I'll help you even clean everything up but after you regain your strength and are feeling mentally okay." Jeongguks voice was soft on the ears and his comfort he provided was just what I needed.

Sucks that I'm not going to feel mentally okay for a while. But for him I'll try to be since I can detect nothing but good intentions from him.