Tutor: My Lover |+21|

Unexpected

A few months had passed by and I've been doing great living on my own. I got a well paying job, thanks to Yoongi, which led me to being able to save enough money to start decorating the baby's room in a way that I felt best suits my taste.

I'm currently laying in bed with my laptop beside me with a show playing. I started to gently rubbing my bloated stomach while smiling softly to myself when I felt my baby respond to my touch by shifting around and pressing against where I had just touched.

I attended the check up Yoongi scheduled for me and got the sonograms because of the pictures I ended up starting a little scrapbook for the baby, since I decided to record everything. In the beginning of the book there was my first and second pregnancy tests along with exciting and anxious thoughts plus a few hopeful wishes.

"I'll tell everyone when times right so far only Yoongi knows about you." I whisper softly to my baby bump before pausing my show and carefully getting out of bed. I walked out my room and basically penguin waddled to the kitchen to make something to each since it was getting to the time I normally ate dinner.

As I was getting everything ready I heard a know on my front door. "Hm? That's weird.. Yoongi and the others usually work this late, we'll except SeokJinnie but he's usually home grading papers for his classes."

I pause what I'm doing and walk over to the door, without thinking much of it I opened the door. "Yes?" I state as I open it but then I come completely still as if time just froze.

"Y/n!"

I was pulled into a hug but I immediately pushed away. I look at the person standing before me as if I never knew them, "What the hell happened to you? You look like shit." Yes this person is someone I despise but I can't overlook their appearance.

Their eyes were swollen and puffy, cheeks were practically caving in since their cheek bones could be seen, their skin was almost as pale as snow. Their body looked kind of frail and their hair was messy, "Joon... Are you sick?"

"What? No!.. Th-The guy's didn't want to tell me where you lived but I heard them talking earlier and they said this was your address so I came to see if that was true." He smiled but he looked like he was in so much pain. "You look like you're doing great. It looks like you gained a lot of weight."

"Namjoon.." I sucked my teeth and sighed, "Come in. I'll make you something to eat." I pulled him inside and shut my front door then locked it. I guided him to the kitchen that was shared to my mini dining room and just heavily sighed while getting stuff ready for me to cook.

"Explain to me why you look like that." I stated and glanced at him. "Oh um- well.." Namjoon rubbed his nape and puffed out his cheeks. "After our meet in Taes house I regretted everything and got really depressed to the point I stopped eating, I rarely get sleep, and I started over working myself." He shrugged as if it were no big deal.

"You look pretty healthy though, so does that mean you moved on?" I stopped cooking for a second and death glares him. "I look pretty healthy?" I scoff and roll my eyes. "Why are you so stuck on me? You cheated on me so many times! I can't believe you're even here worrying so much about me!"

"I know Y/n! I feel so damn shitty for everything I did! At Taes house me and the guys planned on having me and you sit and work the stuff out! I'm in love with you Y/n! I can never get you out my head, I don't want to be with anyone that's not you!"

I press my tongue to my cheek and scoffed before going back to cooking. "Only if that were the case before you cheated on me so many times. You should be thankful I'm even offering to make you a meal."

"I am thankful but please.. Y/n it's been like eight months since I last saw you! You look completely different! I know I look different!"

"I look different because I'm pregnant Joon! I've been pregnant! I'm fucking seven months! I'm not fucking fat!" I yell and slam the utensils against the counter. "Before you ask, it's your fucking baby! I've never cheated on you not once! I only ever did it with you and here I am!"

Namjoon looked at me stunned but my emotions were getting the best of me and I began to cry. Joon immediately came to my side and cautiously hugged me, "I-I didn't know.. Why didn't you tell me?"

"No one knows except Yoongi.. I didn't tell you the first time I found out cause we were going through a lot and you just kept cheating. I couldn't deal with that anymore, I know my worth, I don't deserve that and I won't stand for it anymore."

For the first time in a while a tear followed by a few more began to roll out Namjoons eyes. "I-I know.. I'm s-so sorry. Please.. Y/n give me one last chance." Joon had gotten down on his knees and held my hands while looking at me with tear filled eyes continuing to beg me.

"Namjoon, I can't right now.. I need time to think. I just don't feel like you fully deserve another chance. Go talk to Yoongi and Jeongguk then tell them to text me after." I stated and took my hands away before wiping my eyes then turned my back to him. "Go sit down and wait for dinner to be done."

HNamjoon  stood on his knees, I could feel his harsh stare  but I ignored it and continued to cook. He took a deep breath, sniffling occasionally, then got off the floor to go sit down.

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"Yoongi.. What do I do? I was doing fine but my heart hurts knowing the reason Namjoon is hurt is because of me. Have you seen how he looks?"

"Yes Y/n.. He refuses to eat, I tried taking him out to dinner with me and Seokjin hyung but he declined and said he didn't feel like eating."

I wiped my eyes but began to cry more. "I hate seeing someone hurting like that. My heart can't take it especially in the state I'm in."

Yoongi sighed through the phone and sucked his teeth I could tell that he was just thinking of how to answer. "Maybe it's just because you're pregnant and your hormones are everywhere that you feel this way. Since you said you get this way when you see someone like that maybe your pregnancy is amplifying those feelings."

I subconsciously nodded, Yoongi of course wasn't a doctor but what he had said did make sense. "I guess your right... I don't know how to feel right now so I'm just going to take a nap for a bit."  Yoongi stood silent I assumed he had nothing to say. "I'll call you later when I wake up."

Yoongi made a small hum before responding. "Alright, call me when you wake up I'll keep my phone on me." With that said I mumbled a small "okay" before we said our goodbyes. After hanging up the phone I obviously couldn't sleep with my mind being a mess so I decided to lay in bed on my phone till I eventually get tired or hungry.