iwaoi | sad

chapter 2

"Awh, damn it... He didn't answer his phone... Again", Toru thought. He had been trying to reach out to him for a while now. Why was Iwa so distant ? Oikawa was paralyzed. He felt like his arms were to fall off. He just stared as his phone.

"I wish he had responded"

Toru felt like he wasn't good enough, he was never good enough. Like he wasn't what he wanted to be. He was lost.

He was unsure and confused on how to feel about himself, but at the same time, it was glass-clear. "I think... I think I like Iwaizumi". Was it safe to call it a crush? Oikawa had never felt like that before. Should he confess ?

"I wish he had responded"

If only he had responded... That would've brang Toru closer to his conclusion. "It can't be that bad... No answer means no, right? And I haven't even asked the question yet, so there's no answer..." He was hiding it, but deep down, he was scared. Oikawa was terrified. He was frightened like a little child at the sight of its shadow.

Around Hajime, he felt like he was floating. Like his body was dying to run into his crushes' arms. It wasn't even a b*ner. He just felt warm, like Iwa was holding him in his arms. Like a baby in their mother's soft, warming arms. He felt protected, and just positive in general around him. But Toru was convinced Hajime only saw him as his setter. His volleyball setter.

"I wish he had responded"

Oikawa laid in bed, curled up in a ball. He fell asleep under his thick covers, on his hard, but soft mattress.

The next day, Oikawa wasn't feeling so good. He just couldn't think. All he wanted to do was to approach him and kiss him. "I want him to take me skydiving, rock climbing, lumber jacking, hiking, surfing, skiing, to a restaurant, too the zoo, to the park... I just want to be happy... With him.", he wrote in his secret journal, hiding it right after.

They hadn't talked more than the usual today. All Iwa could talk about was that new friend of his. "I had so much fun with him"

Conan Gray - Heather
But I watch your eyes, as she
Walks by
What a sight for
Sore eyes

"If only he knew... That he's the boy I'm in love with..."