I woke up to ' excuse me miss' by Chris brown playing on the speakers and instantly smelled some bomb ass food . I rubbed my eyes as I looked to my left to see Roddy wasn't in bed . I yawned and got up with one of my blankets wrapped around me and turned on the shower in my bathroom. I washed myself up while humming to the music, stepped out, dried myself and lotioned up . I put on a Burberry crop top that was really like a sports bra and the matching leggings . I went and put on my ankle bracelet, earrings and watch . I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs only to see chefs in the kitchen and Roddy in his phone like he was planning something . " the birthday girl has woken up !" Roddy says and all the chefs say 'happy birthday!' I smiled at them " thank you !!" . Roddy came up to me and hugged me . " happy birthday mama !" He kissed me twice . " thank you..for all of this " I smiled and he hugged me more " only for you Bebe ".
" now let's eat cause we got some other things to do " he pulled my hand and sat us both down and we started eating .
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ChanelG- I didn't forget about you ..I miss seeing your smile and hearing you laugh . It's crazy cause I still hear your voice in my head 😕. You were going out to buy me a car for my birthday and ended up not coming back.. it kills me because you said you had something important to tell me before you left and you never got to 💔💔. I'm crying my eyes out right now , wishing that this was still just a dream and you would come back just to at least hug me .. Your forever in my heart bestie , it's our day . I love you and I'll see you soon 🕊💙💙.
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I was currently balling my eyes out . I told Roddy I was going to the bathroom to clean up, which I was but I couldn't hold back the tears . I missed jahseh so much it's crazy . He was my bestfriend before all of this , everywhere I went he would go with me if it wasn't Roddy . He trusted me with everything and so did I , he spent most of his life hurt and as soon as he was doing better and helping out in the world..he gets shot .
So I never REALLY claimed this day as my birthday no more , I claim it as his too and also 'our ' day .
I wiped my eyes but tears just kept going down and I just looked at myself in the mirror . ' your doing fine c , happy birthday' I heard his voice which just made me smile. I reached down the last marble drawer and grabbed one of his all time favorite cologne and just smelled it . It didn't even smell like cologne , it smelt like him .
I put it down and washed my face , put on mascara and lip gloss . I made sure my outfit still looked right cause I didn't feel like changing it until later. I made sure I looked okay and walked out to my room to see Roddy on the bed. " you wanna hear something ?" I asked him while ow ent on my phone . He got up behind me and wrapped his arms on my shoulders. " sure " . I started playing 'sad' by x but it wasn't the original version, i had featured in it but we just never got the chance to drop it .
"I'm sad I know yeah, I'm sad I know yeah.." and that's when my verse came on .
"I gave you everything , you took my heart and broke it to pieces. I'm still broken , left alone...no This won't end, please put me to sleep . I'm broken.. it's hurtin . Please why me..? I love when your 'round but , it fucking ..hurts when you leave " we both heard my self sing and I just remember being in the studio with him and him smiling at me because of how much he loved it .
" I love it " Roddy kissed my cheek multiple times until he turned me around where I was facing him and just pulled me into a big hug. He understood I needed it and didn't bother to ask...one of the main reason why I loved him . " can we take a nap before we go and get ready for this party?" I yawned and he chuckled " definitely ". He took off his shirt and put on some basketball shorts so he wouldn't have to sleep in all his designer shit . I took these tight ass leggings off and put on some shorts and climbed into the bed with him , yawning. I turned around so my back was facing him so he spooked me , just like always and massaged my head while we both fell asleep .
