Forever; Roddy richh

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I opened my eyes slowly with a bright light right on me . I tried moving my arm but I felt a huge pain in my stomach and shoulder .
" ow!" I cried out . I remember everything that happened tonight which just made me cry more.

I turned my head and roddy was no where in the room . A doctor came in and smiled widely for some reason . " your awake !" She said semi loud .
I furrowed my eyebrows at her and she came over by me " we had to do two surgeries and you lost a lot of blood ..you had a 20% chance of living after surgery and you pulled through " she rubbed my hand .
I cried just hearing that .
None of this feels real! Why isn't nobody here for me.. " where's my boyfriend..roddy?" I asked her .
" he's the only visitor you can have right now but I'll go get him for you , let me help you real quick " . She lifted up the bed so I could sit up a little bit made sure I wasn't hurting the wound in my stomach and then she left out to get roddy I hope.

I just needed to be in his presence and hug him . I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared because I am .
I heard the door open and roddy jogged to the bed by my side " baby..come here " he wrapped his hands gently around my head and I cried in his arms.
" I should've made you go to the car ..I should've been in front of you " he sniffed .
" no..I'd get shot 100 times before I let you get hurt baby " I told him and it was Thee truth . Call me dumb or whatever but it'll hurt me even more if roddy was in pain and on the verge of dying...I guess praying for him really worked.

He sat down in a chair and scooted closer to me .
" I thought I was going t-to lose you " he cried . Roddy never cried much , he didn't like showing his emotions but this time it's different..
" I only had a 20% chance of living..but I'm still here baby " I rubbed his hand and laid my head back down. " could I see my phone..?" I asked him .
"You sure?" . I nodded my head and held it in my good hand. Everyone was posting about it all over social media , there were good things but also things saying ' roddy left her' or ' roddy let her get shot' .

  I went on Twitter and decided to post something, I looked at the time and it was two in the morning.
It was kinda hard to type with one hand but I managed. After a couple minutes I put me phone down and noticed roddy was starring at me.
" what ..?" .
" I just..you took those two shots for me , I love you so much and I'm sorry you gotta go through all this mama..we should've just stayed home" he wiped his eyes and I grabbed onto his hand .
He looked up at me " ride or die remember?