I sat there with my laptop open on my lap but I was looking out the tour bus window at the rain and the darkining sky. I mindlessly chewed at my thumb nail as I sat there on the bus couch staring into space. I had no idea what state we were in, last time I checked we were in Michigan.
I thought about the idea of being this close to her. It was my fault and I knew it. Have I ever made a good decision? I wondered what she was doing right now, probably dancing. The thought made a small smile come to my face. I felt like I had in fact ruined her life like she said I did. I felt bad, she didn't deserve that shitty phone call. I made a huge mistake.
"You alright man?" I herd Pete's voice ask from beside me snapping me out of my thoughts. I turned to look at him.
"Huh? Yeah. Yeah I'm alright. Where are we?" I asked him and he shrugged.
"Indiana! About to hit Illinois." I heard Andy yell from his bunk.
This was in fact a miracle. My mind began to turn like cogs in a machine. How would I go about this? I had no idea, but I packed my things regardless.
As soon as I began to see the familiar Chicago skyline I knew I was about to get my chance.
The bus stopped at a rest stop and I hurriedly grabbed my things as the guys looked at me.
"Where are you going?" Pete looked up from his phone and asked me.
"I really don't know." I said and rushed off the bus almost tripping on my way down the steps.
I sat in my hotel room pacing. I decided to walk down the street and look for a coffee shop. I felt like I had been awake for far too long.
I try to keep my head down in public so I don't get noticed somehow. Something did catch my eye though, I hadn't even been looking for it. A poster for Cinderella the ballet tomorrow night. She had told me a few months ago she would be in this. Every thing was miraculously falling into place as if I was supposed to do all of this. I actually stole the poster from where it was stapled on an electric post.
I felt some relief come over me. I had thought I'd never get to see her again and this was my chance to try to fix things. I was scared though, maybe it was of seeing her again, maybe it was fear of rejection, or maybe it was the thought of her possibly having someone else. Should I eben be tracking her down again, wouldn't I just look creepy again. As I started walking to the coffee shop again I wondered if I should just go but not speak to her. Maybe I should just let her be free.
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FanfictionIris is alone, she's use to being alone since the accident that left her unable to go after her dream but Patrick jumps in and trays to help but they both have their secrets.