Overcoming The Past

Chapter 2: The Decision

Camerella's POV:
Two years later

I never knew how complex my life would become after that. How I really had no one to lean on anymore. Kamden had returned to school back to normal I guess you could say. He had no recollection of that night. He couldn't remember one event of that night. The worst part is that he doesn't remember that we broke up. I just have the painfully heartbreaking decision to make. Do I stay with him and forgive him for what happened, or do I tell him what happened and break up with him? I have no idea what to do. This is a moment that I wish I had my brother back. Knowing that won't happen, I remember his last words to me.
I had school today and I had to get ready. I put on a pair of black skinny jeans with a rip right at the knee cap, and a tight grey long sleeved shirt. I then walked out of my dark room covered in posters to the bathroom where I then proceeded to put on eyeliner and complete a smokey eye makeup. I flat ironed my long brown hair. I put on my black knee high converse and grabbed my backpack and a random hoodie from my closet.
When I got to my car, I heard my phone ringing. I retrieved the phone to see that it was Kamden. "Hello?" I answered.
"Good morning sweetie! Do you want me to pick you up for school?" He replied.
"I think I'll be fine. See you at school."
"Okay."
I hung up the phone and hopped in my red 2014 Camaro that my dad bought me shortly before his diagnosis. I cranked it up and turned the radio on to here my brother's favorite song, "Drops of Jupiter" by Train. I smiled because he used to play this song every time I was ever sad and he would sing it to me. Jake would grab my hand tell me that everything would be okay.
When I got to school, I was greeted by my best friend Vanessa Smith. She had long black hair and bangs that covered most of her face. We had known each other since we were little kids. We were almost inseparable. "Hi Cam! I got you a chocolate milkshake. I thought you could use one."
"Thanks Nessa." The bell rings and it's time to go to class. We walk down the hall to Algebra, our first class. I wave goodbye to Vanessa because she had History.
"Hey beautiful." Kamden said as he sat down in the seat beside me. He was wearing a pair of ripped skinny jeans and one of my favorite band's t-shirts. I hated that he was wearing that because I knew I had to make a decision soon.

This would be the worst. I sat the entire class thinking this over. Kamden kept staring at me which of course interrupted my thoughts. Now when I look at him, all I see is a beat up pitiful, helpless person lying in a hospital bed fighting for his life. These characteristics reminded me of the same pitiful guy who I couldn't believe was my brother. I felt extremely guilty, because I feel like I'm the cause for all of this.

I forced myself to make a decision at the end of Algebra. This is obviously the most pressure on me in my life. I feel as if the bookbag I carry around is filled with two four-hundred ton weights. I decided that I would tell him what happened, but I am forgiving him. He didn't know all the events that would threaten life as he knew it. I can't keep this from him. It's something he must know. Besides, I can't lose him after I've lost almost everyone else.

I was five lockers down from him. Worried of how he would take it, I had rehearsed what I'd say. I walked over to him. "Kamden I need to tell you something. Remember when you woke up in the hospital?" My hands began to shake.

"Yeah. Do you know why I was there? I could tell when I woke up that I had been hurt pretty bad." He said in a concerned tone.

"You were in a car accident after a fight that we had. You....y..y...you broke up with me. You said you were tired of fighting and that this couldn't work any longer. You slammed the door when you left, and you drove off. The next thing I know you're in the hospital fighting for your life." My voice shaky now, and tears are starting to blur my vision. "You were so upset that you started crying and then lost control and..." I hesitated before I told him the rest. "The person you collided with, was my brother Jake. His injuries were too severe and he died that night."

Kamden looked down not being able to come into contact with me. A tear fell to the ground below. "Camerella. I don't even have words. I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. I never knew. I thought he was just being home schooled now. You probably hate me now. Camerella, I know there is no way you can forgive me for that." He collapsed to the floor. His face covered by his strong hands. "I'm so stupid Camerella!" He slammed his fist in the locker behind him.

"No! Listen to me Kamden! I forgive you. It wasn't your fault the car was uncontrollable. Kamden, you are all I have left. I can't lose you too. My brother always said you were a great guy, and that you wouldn't leave me. So, please don't." I pleaded desperately.

"Never Camerella. Never. Not in a million years." He grabbed my hand and hugged me tightly. I looked at my brother's picture inside my locker. I smiled and hugged Kamden again. Maybe this will work. I hope so.