The Happy Ending

Part Six: Giving Up

MARIUS
He felt bad. He offered a listening ear to his new friend, but somehow he had made it about himself. It was selfish of him, and it pained him to know that he wasn't very helpful. He didn't want to scare away his new friend or make them mad at him for not listening very well. He just wanted to help, especially since he saw a little bit of himself in this mysterious new friend.

@marmar1013
I'm sorry :( you asked me for help, but I let my personal feelings get the best of me and made it about myself. I'm still here if you need it.

@marmar1013
I promise

@marmar1013
I can see you've left, but I just wanted to say that I think you're brave. It's not easy to feel things that go against the grain, but in the end being true to yourself is always the way to go.

@marmar1013
Other people might not understand, but hiding who you are so others like you really sucks compared to being yourself and having others dislike you, and I know this from personal experience.

@marmar1013
We humans are social creatures, and we all strive to be accepted. But are you truly accepted if it's based on a lie? It might suck when people are mean, but that's when you find out who your true friends are, and those true friends are the best, and they're worth it all. It's how I found Jordan, and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him. And I can only hope that you find someone that makes life worth living. Right now, I have a feeling you're questioning that. You're worth so much more than what you're feeling. You're worth it.

@marmar1013
I can't tell you how sorry I am. I hope you're not mad at me. I really hope I didn't scare you off. It might not look like it, but I want to be your friend.

@marmar1013
It's driving me nuts. I know I said I wouldn't try to figure out who you are, but I want to know. Maybe sometime when you feel comfortable enough we could agree on a place and meet up. I just want to be there for you and let you know that you're not alone. I know you're not comfortable with it, now. I respect that. But maybe someday?

@marmar1013
Okay, I feel like I've, "overstayed my welcome," so to speak. I'll go, now. But I'm still here if you need to talk, and I promise I won't get all emotional on you, anymore. Bye.

@marmar1013
P.S.
I'll start waiting under the bleachers by the football field everyday after school for an hour, just in case you need to talk in person. It's okay if you never show up. I don't mind waiting. But I want you to know that someone is here for you always. No matter what. Okay, now I really will go, now lol.

Marius sighed. He just knew he screwed up. He had a new friend, but it would appear he scared them away with his emotional outburst. But he had no idea that his new friend and the guy he was ranting about were one in the same.

JAE
Jae spent the rest of the day locked up in his bedroom. When dinner time came around, his mom, Meredith, knocked on his door.

"Jae!" She yelled, "dinner time!"

Jae didn't answer. He was wrapped up in his comforter, eyes blood shot and puffy from crying for hours. A headache was beginning to form from all of the crying, but he didn't care. All he wanted to do was sleep. But he can't sleep because all he can think about are Marius' words condemning him as a homophobic asshole.

It's true, Jae most definitely acted as such, but he didn't really mean it.

He didn't know what to do, anymore. Marius' words of advice were good ones, and he would have taken them and used them, but he was still too scared to be open with it all, knowing he himself condemned Marius for the exact same thing. It felt like his entire life has come crashing down to absolute rock bottom.