𝓑𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷 𝓢𝓸𝓾𝓵 (//SLOW UPDATES//)

Flowers..?

          Vegeta opened his eyes to see that comforting place once again: the field. It had only been about a day since he was here last, but he was still just as excited about this location as the first time he had seen it. There was just something about it - something special - that made him feel slightly better, and even if he wouldn't admit it he did like it here.
          His gaze shifted around the scenery, the light colours that seemed to radiate joy and warmth welcoming him back as he took in every beautiful detail. The few trees with their rustling leaves, the grass that swayed in the breeze, the flowers that thrived in the sunlight, the water that rippled and glistened peacefully - it was all so incredible. So amazingly, beautifully incredible.
          "And you said you didn't like it here." Goku teased as he watched the prince looking around with that same bright almost child-like smile. It was a nice feeling that he got from seeing the prince like this, a mix of pride and his own happiness he felt towards the thought that he was lucky enough to see Vegeta smile a genuine smile.
          "Oh, shut up." The smaller of the two laughed, playfully punching Goku in the arm in response to his comment, the taller male only chuckling in return. He shook his head before focusing back on his surroundings, then gently began dragging Goku along to the spot they sat last time.
          Goku followed along with Vegeta as they walked over to the shaded area under the tree, smiling at the prince's excited expression. It wasn't often that Vegeta was like this, even before everything had gone downhill for him he was always upset about something, and he never really smiled or laughed - he never seemed truly happy back then, and now it was clear he wasn't. And just thinking about all the reasons Vegeta was always so reserved and angry, and now sad and suicidal made Goku feel sick: there was so much that the prince had sealed away hoping that it would all just go away and he always put up this act of arrogance to protect himself from his horrid past, but once one part of that shield was broken the rest only shattered like glass with the more time that passed. And, when reality came crashing back to him and he was pushed closer to the edge by the minute, he did what he thought was best - what he was used to, and what he felt would fix it all. But that didn't fix it and it never would, no, it made things worse the longer it went on. No matter how hard Vegeta tried to convince himself, no matter how many times he said he was fine and that it didn't matter, no matter how many times he cried and screamed at himself for his mistakes - Goku could tell he didn't believe that disappearing was right, and he didn't want it to end that way. The cowardly way.
          That was just it though, and the more it came to light the clearer it was until eventually the bubbly saiyan pieced it together: Vegeta was scared - terrified even - of what others thought of him. He would always act all tough and rude, but underneath all that he was just like everyone else. He didn't show his true self, or his emotions because he was scared that people wouldn't accept him for who he was. He was raised to believe that. He was raised to believe that his true self, the one deep down inside, was useless and that nobody would want them - so he hid that part of himself away, and when he fell that side came out and couldn't be locked away any longer.
          The more he was pushed around and abused, the more his confidence and pride dwindled until it was all replaced with self-loathing. He was afraid to open up to people and talk about his problems, and he didn't want to be viewed as weak - that much was bluntly obvious - so when he had slipped up he forced himself to believe that the pain and suffering that was given to him throughout his life was his own fault for being so pathetic. And eventually when the one he relied on most to be there for him betrayed him and went behind his back, he snapped and took action to actively try to kill himself.
          It was sad. Thinking about someone actually living like that, someone so broken that the longer time ticked away the more they wanted to just sink into the ground, someone who was silently drowning in their own sorrows - thinking about someone like that made Goku feel sick, it made him feel terrible for reasons he couldn't put his finger on.