pornstar (mattia polibio)

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carmen pov
I made my way back home late at night because I went shopping for my gaming room, but I was to tired to put anything in it right now

I walked up to my room putting on shorts, and a spaghetti strapped crop top, and socks

I walk downstairs and I made a little snack....what i mean by snack is...

whip cream, cookies, piece of cake, gummy bears, gum, popcorn, and big two leader

I sit on the couch and I turn on a movie because im a fat ass and i was hungry and tired

before I could eat anything I have to take my depression pills and omg I hate taking them

i walk upstairs- you know what- I'm not even gonna take them

I never not took my pills so I have no idea what will happen

I sat on the couch and i started to movie and started eating
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*3 hours later*
I ate all the food😳

now im very full😁

I walk upstairs leaving my mess downstairs and being lazy

I walk upstairs putting up my hair and i had a flash back

flashback
"shut up" he said pushing me on the couch

"chris, I dont know" I cried

"yes you do"

"mommy are you okay" I heard lilly say outside of the door

"yes baby" I wipe my nose

end of flash back

I wipe my tears and get on my bed

I HAD a daughter named lilly, and my boyfriend Chris took her from me

then he killed her, i saw it on the news and it scared me for life

this was when I was very young...14

"fuck" I cry

I couldn't breath and I took out my inhaler and took breath from it

I put it on my dresser and I just cry.

"FUCKING ASSHOLE" i scream "fucking asshole"

"you ruin my fucking life, and I trusted you....i trusted you"

after some time i calm down and i just play with the ring on my finger

I turn over to check the time and it was 5:43am

it was morning

now I have to deal with people, i cant be by myself

I spent all night crying, just because I didnt take two pills....thats funny

I get my pill bottle and I take the two pills and I just lay there and cuddled pillow until i actually had to get up