One shots of LIFE

1.2: Who Am I To You

Taehyung's POV:

I am standing in front of the door of JK's house. It's been 3 years. Trembling from both fear, pain and anger as mouns gets louder.

I wanted to shout, I wanted to punch him or just kill them both. But there's nothing I can do. It's my fault though. It's my fault, I left him alone. It's my fault that, I just let go of him so easily just because I caught them kissing at the bar.

Flashback:

"Jungkook? Jimin?!"- I was speechless and breathless as I caught them kissing. Jimin looks sobber and Jungkook too.

But why?! Why are they kissing? Jungkook's my boyfriend and Jimin's our best friend. Are they fooling around when I'm not around?

"T-tae... Let me explai-..."- I cut him off immediately with a slap.

The music inside the bar is still loud and noisy, but the pain that stabs me is much louder.

"S-stop! Don't. You. Dare. Come. Near. At. Me! (But he steps forward probably to hug me which I didn't accepted) Don't touch me, you moron___bitch!"-then I found my way out of the bar immediately.

"Taehyung, please!!! Try to listen to me. I'm so... Sorry!"-he shouted before I was finally out of the bar. But before I could finally go out, I spare a last glance towards him. I saw the pain and regret inside his eyes as he cry.

But, it just felt so sad and mad at the same time. The only thing that can make me feel better right now, to is to go out and relax my mind.
Feeling to breathe some fresh air outside these suffocating area.

I left him that same day to probably fixed myself and my feelings. But, I met an accident. I was comatose for 2 and a half of year. Then, after waking up from the long sleep it was hard for me to regain all of my senses at a one time. It took me, 6 months to fully regained my strength, my whole memory and myself.

For the past two years, I was hospitalized by the person who caused the accident. She is an old lady who likes to have a son, which had been fulfilled because of that accident. She took care of me, and never let go of the chances to have me alive again. It was at the Daegu, from Seoul where I and Jungkook are living together or from Busan where, I live originally. No wonder why, no one came to search for me at that place.

When I finally decided to go back to Seoul, I had decided already that I'll give Jungkook a second chance.

End of Flashback-

Now, as I continuously hear the mouns coming from the inside which I knew for sure is from my best friend Jimin. And the owner of the house, no other than Jungkook. I decided to left without a word.

Sometimes, when you knew that there's no point of fighting something that you don't have anymore. It's better to just let go. Sometimes, letting go doesn't mean that you don't love the person you are letting go anymore. Sometimes, letting go, just simply means that your love can survive even if it meant loving someone from a far place. Sometimes, it's better to not know the reality, than to know the reality and be slapped hard by it.

I cried a lot.

"What's the use of coming back? I shouldn't have came here at the first place! I'm such an idiot for thinking... For thinking that he'll wait for me, hyung...( I cried so hard in my Seokjin hyung's arms) He had done it once, why am I even surprise? And, after... After such years, why did I think that he still loves me? I'm foolish isn't it?"-i smiled bitterly.

"Sssh...(then he went to hug me tight) Don't say that, Tae... You're not an idiot. Jungkook is just too foolish to cheat on you, and let go of you that easily. Do you understand me, Tae?______ You're, More than what we think. You're valid and important. And there's still so many things, for you to see before you doubt in yourself. Before you say that, it's not worth to have a second life."-then he looked at me with those most reassuring words.