Living with regret

Part 5

Y/N's POV

You and niall stood there together, waiting for someone to say something but neither of you had any words for what just occured. Finally niall said something.

N: Y/N.. "I-i-im sorry for hitting him. But that ass hole deserved it. He probaly will come back here so if you want to stay at my house, your more than welcome too. Actually, id feel better if you did." He chuckled a bit.

Y/N: thank you ni! And can we keave now.? Ill come back for my stuff another time but i really just need to leave and get away from this place."

N: "of course. Lets go." He said grabbing your hand and leading you too the car.

A few hours later you were eating lunch at nialls. You told him the while story about how harry said he loved you, then said he lied, then all the other damaging moments that you wish you could get out of your brain.

Y/N: its all my fault! None of this wouldve happened happened if i just was a better girlfriend! I dont know what i couldve done though! Why am i not good enough?" You lightly cried to niall.

N: "hey! Stop!! Your absolutely perfect. Harrys the idiot who fucked up everything with the most beautiful girlfriend he will ever get! You deserve someone who can treat you better, and love you more than you could have ever imagined." He said with his beautiful blue eyes staring into yours.

Y/N: "thank you niall. But unfortunetaly, i dont think anyone will love me like that. Im worthless."

N: "your not worthless. Your perfect Y/N." Niall said planting his finger on your chin and lifting your head up. "Let me treat you like a princess." He said slowly leaning in and pressing his soft lips against yours. You felt sparks building up in your stomach, but not the way you felt when you used to kiss harry. It just felt different. You pulled away and broke the kiss, looking at niall,

Y/N: "niall, im sorry i cant do this too you. I like you, but i dont think i can do this with anyone right now. Im hurt, and im confused and id rather not hurt anyone else right now." You say, slowly standing up and walking out the door to go for a drive.

A few minutes later, you were driving through the streets of London, trying to clear your thoughts but every second you started thinking about harry. How much you still loved him. But knowing, how you dont know if it will ever be the same again. Then you thought about niall. How hes the only trustworthy person right now, but you cant hurt him knowing you still have feelings for harry. You dont know why but you could not contain the tears in your eyes right now. You didnt think you could ever cry this much. You turned the radio on and lucky enough "the heart wants what is wants" comes on, making you think more about the situation. Suddenly you feel a vibration and your phone buzzes. A text from niall. You grabbed your phone keeping your eyes on the road but you kept glancing at your phone to see what he said.

N: hey, sorry about what just happened. We cool? Lemme know when your coming back! :)

You smiled at the text and put your phone down. Then it buzzed again. This time, it wasnt a text from niall. It was a text from harry. You froze. You quickly grabbed your phone to see what it said.

H: Y/N, i love you. Forever and always.. Dont ever forget that. Xx..

The tears began falling again as you were about to reply.

Y/N: i love y--

Before you could even finish the text, a loud honk came from your left side, and suddenly, everything went black..