His Julian

Talk to me

Julian's pov
September 5, 20XX (Friday)
11:25pm

I watched him turn his head as he sighed. I grabbed onto his hands and urged, "I'll hold your hand to keep you calm!" His hands were cold as ice, as if he were a dead body

"Ok ok!" He told me as I smiled. He lied down on his back in my bed as I did the same. "My dad died when I was three. My mom remarried when I was five. I don't know when it happened but he started to change in a negative way. Staying out late, coming home early in the morning smelling like cheap perfume, drinking and smoking, hiding his phone from my mom. As years passed he started yelling at us, hitting my mom then me. My sisters were never touched because I would protect them, hiding them in the bathroom with the door locked from the inside"

"I never liked that man"

His tone was so calming but sad. I turn on my side facing him and watch him talk. "My childhood was fine. Had friends, good in school, played outside, all the stuff kids would do. I used to do childish pranks on my classmates but grew out of that phase when I got to know Philip better. He and I were born in the same hospital, he's only two days older than me. So our moms say that we're practically brothers. Philip never left my side and I never left his. He's the reason I've made it this far"

"So Philip knows you like the back of his hand" I point out as he nodded. "Keep going"

"Freshman year of high school was normal. In my sophomore year I came out as gay to my mom, she accepted me with opened arms. Then I told Philip who honestly didn't care, he said it won't change what we have. Not much people know about it so it's never been a problem for me since I had a good reputation in the school plus community. I used to have a fling with a boy a year older than me but it didn't work out. He was such a jerk and didn't care how I felt. Lesson I learned from him was to always be independent" he continued then turned on he's side facing me. "What about you Kid?"

I blush at him. His face was so beautiful. "I grew up as the second youngest sibling in the family so I always got what I wanted. Me and my family are close but not that close, I'm only close with my little sister who I have been with my whole life. My childhood was fine, it was close to being like yours but with two older siblings and one younger sibling."

"Ah, so you're treated like a baby here?" He teased as I huff at him "I'm joking. Go on, tell me more"

"Hmm......I usually help my older brother Vincent cook in the kitchen when he's trying new recipes and help my little sister Ophelia plant in the garden. I don't like bugs at all, they scare the life out of me. I hate the summer heat and the spring pollen. I guess you can say I'm a winter type of person." I chuckled at the last thing I said as I saw a small smile form on his face.

"Your pretty when you smile" I sigh to him

"You already used that line on to me today. Pick a different one" he laughed at me

"Well you are" I reply to him "what's your favorite candy?"

"Strawberry flavor Twizzlers. You?" He answered back

"M&M. Favorite place to go at night?" I ask him

"The library. It's quiet and has a great view from the rooftop. How about you?" He asked with a soft tone that made my heart flutter

"I don't know yet...." I trailed off

"Well I guess I have to take you places then. We can start next week Friday ok" he explained while leaning up, letting go of my hand and I frowned "I'm getting some water from my bag so calm down"

"So do you always keep little hair clips on you?" I asked him as he nodded. "Where'd you get them from?"

"My little sisters picked them out for me. We usually buy them from a hair store or target. They say I look cute with them in my hair" he explained while drinking his water bottle

"Well they're not lying" I shyly mumble underneath my breath with a smile as he looks at me.

"Did you say something?" He asked and I shook my head 'no' "tell me some things you like"

"A-about you?" I ask while sitting up next to him.

"If you want to then go for it" he smiled while drinking his water. He looked a little hot while drinking it. "I'm very impatient"

He looked at me with narrow tired yet soft eyes as I felt butterflies in my stomach "I-I um......" I start

"I like the way you put clips in your hair, it makes you look less of a punk. I love it when you sing to me, it makes me feel special. When you call me 'kid' it makes me feel like....I don't know, like I'm worth something. I love your smile, it lets me know that you're happy" I explain with a flustered tone.

I glance at his face to see with a somewhat dorky smile and his ears red. He snickered. Then chuckled. And started laughing at me. I frowned and turned away from him. "No one has ever told me they love my smile!" He laughed as I look back at him with wide eyes

I smiled at him as I felt the atmosphere lighten up. I felt the need to kiss him, I don't know why but I just had to. I've only known him for a little over a week and I want to kiss him. I moved closer to him as he glanced at me from the corner of his eye. "What are you doing Kid?"

My hands were on the side of him, our faces were inches apart that I could feel his cold breath. "Oi what are you doing"

"......I don't know"

I backed away from him as he got up from the bed. "I think I should head home"

I watched him pack his bags up and I frowned. 'I'm so stupid! I knew I shouldn't have done that!' I thought as he was on his way out the door.

"You should know I'm bad for you." He said while turning to me with glaring eyes "it's best if you don't fall for me"

"Goodnight Kid"